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I have gone over the journals in this section several times over and it astounds me the amount of crap I posted in them. They all make me sound to be well for a better word emo I couldn't believe my eyes when I scanned every letter. Nowadays I don't really whine or hate myself or people? I just hate existence in general and the continual existence of every single person aboard this universe or plane. Either way I thought to add in a little journal about how I am ******** tired of everything around me. I am tired of the crap that people throw at me, I am tired at the expectations that I am supposed to uphold. Even the ones that are held by a very nefarious woman that I cannot stand that lives with me.

But yeah it isn't my gf or even my boyfriend for that matter, oh no, this kind of hate is reserved for a woman that I loathe quite a lot. She is my girlfriend's mother oof this woman can really make you hate life and everything within its oily grasp. The thought of ending everybody comes to mind when it comes to her and she has driven me so insane that my true hair color? Gray, it is just a light brown to super Gray and most of it has been made during this time I have spent with them. I have had super times, I have had super bad times, or in the middle. Though add in a job that i work for 12hours of the day overnight. Then you really got a formula of bullshit to be honest. At least my boyfriend is now working with me on it so we can add more to our bank to leave the dreaded house that I live in now.

Well the thought now is to basically kick the b***h out of our home which I am totally down for. But anyway I have gone on long enough about her and glad to be back? I am not sure what I am trying achieve to return to this site, maybe find something of an rp? If I can satisfy and not lose motivation too long for people to lose interest. Maybe travel through the games? They'll hold my attention for a bit before I drop them just saying. But for now that purpose of me being here is up in the air and all I wanted to do is express myself and explain why I have returned after so many years.