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[Well, I'm now in Gardiner, Maine and after nearly a week I am happier than I have been in the entire course of my life. I've now come to the conclusion that, perhaps the only reason I've never fully unlocked my psychic potential is because there was always so much sorrow holding me back. Allow me to explain briefly...]

You see, I used to live in San Diego, California with my mother, stepfather, and younger sister Samantha. They treated me horribly, more like a slave than a member of the family. I'd do work around the house while they sat and did nothing, and it was still never good enough. They would yell and beat on my emotionally and verbally, even my little sister was allowed to order me around and I had to listen. I couldn't even reprimand her when I was watching her while the parents were out, I'd get in trouble for it. stare

Eventually, all this anger and sadness would build up, I'd often cried myself to sleep, sometime feeling worthless, sometimes thinking I'd deserve better. When I'd lash out in anger, strange things would happen around me. I've had a book fly off the shelf even. And one time I shut the door forcefully, but I wouldn't say it was hard enough to be a slam, and the door went passed the frame and got jammed! eek

After I met Mickhael, I'd be talking to him for 6-10 hours a day, he kept me sane. It wasn't too long before I confessed my love to him, and he accepted. We began to form a plan to help me escape that hell, a plan that would allow us both to be happy, have someone to hold at night. And after 6 months of struggling to get it done, here I am, and I've never been happier! heart 3nodding

[There you have it, I always new I was sensitive and had potential, but now that nothing is holding me back, I will fully unlock it. I guess it's true, love really does set you free.]