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A lot of poems, some long some short, some copied from my blog. All crap, it's just a reference for me. Not for you. blaugh I love comments still. rolleyes
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never stop missing you..
..domybiding..
give my heart away
shower my smiles with sorrow
fluttering in the rain
staring at your shadowy silhouette
do.not.remember
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White
White
Represent purity
Ever so clear
And holy
White
Always so clean
Never dirty
Plain old white
That might even sometimes
Be seen
Luminous and neon
There's also the yellowish white
That can give people
A feeling of home
Mixed with nostalgia
Bright white
Shiny, reflecting light
Reminding you to
Give off you best all day round
White
Ever so beautiful
Enveloping us
In its own unique way.
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Take my wings and
Make me fly
The everlasting rust
Coming down in heaps
Are you able
To deny the false pretty of it?
My trust in you
Slowly diminishing
My faith
Slowly ripped from my heart
Please
Do not let it be true
Break the chain
Break free of it
To lost my soul
For it is you
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This is one horrible one:
Technology
Technology, technology
What have you done?
Changed the World much?
Killed the manual work half-heartedly?
Inevitable, unavoidable
Technology is taking over
The World we know?
The warmth of human life?
Robots everywhere
Eletricity, wireless, mobile phones
All crashing in our lives
Do you dare deny it?
Electronic flashing danger
All of which no one notices
All enticed, mesmerized
Blinded by the benefits it presents
Life without technology?
--Impossible
An essential in daily life
Unreplaceable?
Yet the saying goes,
Every cloud has a silver lining
So what exactly has technology
Done for us?
Chores made easier
Transportation made convenient
Steps shortened
Yet we are still not satisfied
Communication method simplified
Information just few clicks away
Knowledge at our dispense
It's too much to take
Games and entertainment
Where would they be
If technology
Were to disappear?
Over in all,
Technology -- Good or bad?
Blessing or disaster?
You decide.
With advantages outshining disadvantages
Technology is here to stay
Whether you like it
Or not.
So now,
Take a step, and welcome
The good old technology
Splashing in our face.
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That
That's what happened
Isn't it?
The rain beating down
That's what you are
Isn't it?
The pain burning hurt
That's why you left
Isn't it?
The denial cutting through
That's the end of it
Isn't it?
The tears streaming out
That's my life
Isn't it?
The dull silence hitting home
That's that
Is it?
Never turning back
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I've never thought
It'll ever be the same
Ever again, yet.
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This is just a part of what I wrote:
We all thought I recovered. Except that I apparantly did not. Otherwise how could you explain this sudden outburst? There's still too much questions left to be answered. Why am I cursed with this, no one knew. Or maybe not.
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You
Sneaks a look
Heart fluttering
Miss you ever so much
But you were never mine
Tired of this
Hide and seek game
Can't hide it any longer
Rushing to get out
Pouring out of my heart
My love for you
Rained down in torrents
Do you not notice it?
Do you not feel it?
Screaming hurt deep down
Hints never working
I brace myself
For the confession
Looking up
In those eyes
I can't get it out
'I..l--'
Coward raged in my ears
I'm nothing but a coward
Unwilling to admit
I looked down and
Squeezed my eyes shut
'Chris, I.. I l-love like you...'
Not daring enough, I turned to go
But as I do so, I saw
No, not you,
But a mirror
Practising in front of a mirror
I've slipped off into my own dreamland yet again
Failure slipped into my thoughts
Wrapped in despair
I looked in the mirror
In there I saw,
You, ever so beautiful
Yet you were never there,
An illusion, as always
Never did I expect
The illusion to move
Shocked with a little hope
I turned
There you are, solid as ever
Looking into your eyes once again
I saw
That you knew,
Heard
Taken aback
I buried my
Self in my hands
Unwilling to accept the
Rejection that's to be
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Flames alight
Burning in your eyes
I can see
The fiery in it
Lashing out at unknown forces
Deep within yourself
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Has it ever occured to you
That the world might be round?
That ways, never-ending are
Crashing into each other,
All the time?
Does it seem that
bad? That sparkling as it may be
Nothing shows through it,
Taking everything around,
All sucked in?
Do you even know that was how
It is? That people, not just anyone,
But everyone, looked
Just right through
It? Turning it over, and over?
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Left Behind
Don't be blinded
Forever, never missing the sights
All, except me
Are you gonna realise it?
That you've left something behind
Something so small you'd never noticed
Cut suddenly, warningless
My miss for you a faint crack in the wall of silence
So misleadiing, guiding to divergence
Spliting the ends, only there
Mist cloaked my view
Waiting for you
Endlessly
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To be.
Creased out of existance.
Barrened over non-existance land.
Blued in the face.
NeverEnding.
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let me fly
let me feel the winds
let me scoop down low ahove branches
let me soar high up above you
let me override myself
let me fly
give me freedom
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break let me
feel the need to break
break the barrier between
between me and the world
break it
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All in a race
Left to right
Right to left
Watching the line draw near
Counting the steps
Victory so near
Yet someone creep past my shoulders
And took the lead
I refuse to let go, refuse to be left behind
Pushing forward
Muscles crying, urging them on..
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Random thoughts..
let my heart go
unknot
melted faded through
hostaged
held
drifting drifting
when the air comes
let me
let me different it
swarming in green
premade
my thoughts lost in me
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the windmills are turning,
blowing wind clinking
let me find my peace
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Below is sort of a series, not really related, but also sort of, they doesn't really make a conplete poem. xp :
Here I stand
I stand
Deserted and stranded
A cliff that bore my name
Against the breaking waters
Amidst the sizzling rumble of the sky
Unshaken by the crackling force
Then it all ended.
I stand
Surrounded and noisy
Crowded with all walks of life
Twinkling into the serenity of the night sky
An icy feeling swept over me
Grabbed my insides, all quivering
Then it all ended.
I stand
Beyond a sea of flames
A land of screams and agony
The air crisp with hatred
Dusting onto beds after beds of ash
Dangling by the edge of life
Then it all ended.
I stand
Weary and uncanny
In my own reflection
My shadow The fear creeping up
The tears dripping down Into nothingness Serenity
Movement Jerked With the moving moment
Then it started up.
I stand
No longer Not standing
An illusion in the retina
The lifelike silhouette in amber streaks
In all sincerity may it be
A sine qua nou for it
Then it remained.
I stand
Admist myself
The sins sining
To bore my name Crowded Screaming Agony
In my own An illusion
Seeing the lines The cracks
I think it ended.
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Fallen Dreams
Autumn come and autumn go,
Shards of my fallen dreams
Remains shattered.
Snowin' winter, blazin' summer
'wonder when my heart will
Ever heal
Flowers bloom,
Pretty as ever,
Making my heart
Hurts more than ever
Efforts wasted,
Career ruined,
How am I
Ever going to start afresh
Oh, God,
Is there anyone out there
Capable of
Putting together
My fallen dreams
And shattered heart.
How I wish there was,
But, it seems--
Only in my dreams.
Oh, Lord-
Years passed,
And yet I remain here,
My dreams
Waiting to be fulfilled.
My heart remain shattered,
And pained,
But life still has to go on.
With a deep breath,
And determination,
I set out to start a new life.
A new beginning,
A new life.
A new life I shall have
Determination,
Confidence,
And a bit of effort.
My life shall be back to normal.
As always...
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I thought I knew
I sat on a chair
This chair
My chair
And thought about life
My life
Broken
Sealed
Hidden
Scarred
What do I have?
What do I want?
Nothing
Everything
Is this really me?
Do I really know?
Yes?
No?
Shattered
My heart
I think I know
And yet I don't
Why am I doing this?
What is this I am doing
Exactly?
Oh, I think I knew
Knew?
What?
The reason?
The reason for the past
The reason for the future
But what about
The reason for the present?
For what is happening now
Do I even need one?
My life
Crap,
Crapped
Crapping
Is this all my life is about
And about a crab?
To sum it all up
I think I knew
The meaning
The meaning of this
The meaning of school, of work, of play, of rest?
The meaning of life
Life's a play
It's all a play
What is my role?
What do i do?
I do NOT think I know,
I knew.
All along
Cold and lonely
What happened to the hugs?
And flowers?
The hearts? Where are those?
The happy times passed
They came, they left
Now they left me with
A single stalk of rose
For me to witness its death
Slowly
Dying, withering
Is that what is happening to the world?
Is that?
I do not know
I should have known
But I don't
No, I don't
And it left me here
Sitting on a chair
The chair
My chair
Thinking I knew
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Welcome
Welcome to my shop
Of doom
Terror and Dreads.
A shop of everything you ever wanted
Your dreams,
Your fears,
Or even, yourself.
Welcome to my shop
Everything's for sale.
Only price:
Your life?
You, with yourself.
Simple task,
Just have to serve me
Or rather say,
My commands,
And wishes.
Deal?
I fulfill wishes,
But what about mine?
So you people,
My customers,
Will have to fulfill it.
Fair enough.
So now,
What's yours?
What do you want?
What you want,
And what you do
Will be balanced out.
So choose carefully.
Choosen?
Okay then shall we start?
Yes we will
Yes, YOU will.
Now there it is.
Done
What you really want.
Deep down.
"You mean..?"
Yes, this is hell.
To you, your house is hell itself.
Being home is living hell.
So, your deepest wish is done.
Now, what about mine?
Ok, so I choose it.
YOU determine it.
Well, since I brought you your hell,
You shall give me some Heaven then.
That's it then.
Thanks
*winks*
Bye
(dissolve into myself)
Remember,
Your price to pay,
Will always be with me.
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Gone
You were my first
And you always will be.
But ties ends now
And we have to part
You were once my one true love
But times have moved on
And reality have to come.
Let go, let go.
It used to be "they're a heaven match",
But now it seems not.
Maybe fate forbids it,
Maybe heaven disapprove.
But it's gone now,
Now and forever.
It may regrow,
It may not.
It all disperse into the night air.
The good times passed,
The love blown away
It did not last, it did not return.
Fading away.
Ever so slowly.
Gone, gone.
My last goodbye.
You'll always be my first.
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Pieces
Broken
To pieces
Love it
To pieces
My heart
In pieces
Everything
In pieces
All those pieces,
Do they fit?
Fit together
To form a whole?
Or is it
Too full of holes?
Too many pieces,
Too many holes
To fill
Can't fill them all.
Anguished.
Frustrated.
Tossed aside.
From hope
To pieces.
The pieces
Lying there
As pieces,
Not to be picked up,
Full of angst.
Broken
The pieces
Torn
No longer fitting.
The whole
Lost?
Lost.
Not renewed ever
Gone.
The whole is falling apart.
The pieces
No longer pieces
Crumbled
Rumbled
Cracked
Nothing to be done
It's the end.
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Don't Wanna
I don't wanna think
Don't wanna hide
Don't wanna write this
And yet I do.
If only,
I had the courage.
The courage to stop.
To do what I really wanna do.
I don't wanna think
That this is all crap.
That life is worthless
I don't wanna allow it.
I don't wanna this to happen
Don't wanna this to be.
I don't wanna think
That life's all fix.
I wanna think
That life do have it's meaning.
Wanna know that living on is easy
Wanna live on to the fullest.
To wanna achieve perfection
To aim for the highest,
The best.
I don't wanna lose out.
I don't wanna give this up.
I don't think I can make it.
Don't wanna think.
Don't think, at all.
Stay up all night,
Sleep in next day.
Zombies all around
Acting like they don't.
I don't wanna sleep.
Don't wanna stay awake,
In fear of thinking again.
What have I become?
I don't wanna let go,
I don't wanna close my eyes
Afraid you'll be gone
Don't wanna lost you.
I don't wanna hold on,
Don't wanna do anything.
Afraid it'll all be too much
That it'll all be over before anything.
Contradict myself
Irony all around
I don't wanna screw up
I don't wanna think I can think.
Think.
Think about tomorrow.
Where's it all going.
I don't wanna think.
Lying there,
With a pen in my hand.
Thinking.
Wishing I won't think.
The pen,
Now on the book.
Left alone, untouched
I don't wanna think.
I don't wanna think
That my life's screwed
Don't wanna think
That everything's alright.
And yet, I thought.
I hid.
I wrote this.
I did. All when I don't wanna.
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Maybe
Maybe this was all meant to be.
A joke out of it all. And,
Yet we treasured it.
Be it true or not; But
Eventually does it matter?
Maybe I think too much
And in the end it only screwed things up.
Yarning for it all to go
Being foolish may be bliss, and
Eating hope doesn't get you anywhere.
Maybe crying does get you somewhere
At least you won't have to worry
Yellow paint peeling from the wall
'Been making it all seem faded.
Enough of this all, I want to stop.
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Freedom
One last time!
I took a deep breath
And prepared myself
For the last blow.
One more time,
Just one small, little tug,
And I'll be free.
Freedom! At last.
I pulled at it
With my
Weak little beak
In what I hope
Was enough strength.
I gathered all my strength
Three, two, one.
I pulled
And pulled, and
Pulled!
With all I have.
Ah...!!
I'll remember that moment in times to come.
Freedom at last.
I'm free! Free.
Free!
At last.
Flapped my wings
Soared high up.
Out and carefree,
For all to see.
Off I go.
Happy as can be
Little did I 'now
That trouble awaits me.
Time passed,
And the consequences
Of it all,
Came bearing down on me.
Weighting down on my small little frame.
I have freedom,
However,
But food
And shelter?
Where to find.
I scraped by
The first few weeks,
But I soon realise
Am I anything
But just too young?
Maturity
And responsibilities,
Just what I need,
Just what I lack.
Rain and shine
I stayed awake,
To search for food,
To search for shelter.
Unfortunately,
To no avail.
And now,
Here I am.
Awaiting my death
But however much pain
And suffering
Did not make me
Regret
My initial decision
To come out
Into this world.
For I have gained
Knowledge and
Happiness
And understood
The meaning of life.
Oh, here comes my last.
Here goes my last breath..
"Hey, Dad! Isn't that your precious bird that flew away?"
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Jay rocks
Rocks til the end of time and space
Impressed forever in my heart
Delighted upon my soul
Always there
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Every night I tear
All the sorrows built up
Nerve wreaking it up
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Feel the wind
Ride the waves
We'll fly together
Never to be alone.
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This one is crap. xp Made up.
lovapalooza >> a type of love-sickness that causes the person to have sudden, random outbreaks, usually resulting in heart-shaped marks all over the body. Its causes is currently unknown, other than it can be spread through kissing.
Recent investigations have shown that lovapalooza outbreaks cases have been rapidly rising, the government have thus decided to ban and divorce all couples/marriage for the moment, and maybe permenantly in future to prevent more outbreaks. All contact between the opposite gender is considered illegal and citizens are reminded to hand over anyone found guilty. Spread of the disease in homosexuality is currently unknown. If found to spreadable too, what will the government do then? No one know. Until then, everyone is advised to keep to themselves as much as possible, and wear/act conservatively, and avoid any physical contact.
-Reported by fallenheartz, professional reportor from fallenheartz company.
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Spinning the wheel
Out of control
Beyond me
Too fast
Gone
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Chasing the clouds
I find myself wandering
Among the queer winds
Lost in the city of darkness
Grasping for hope
Still holding on
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In you
I see
It, overflowing
Instinct overrided
Intelligence erased
Immobilized by
It, fear
Insisting fear.
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Looking around
I realised there's only dead ends
Trapped, all alone
Moving closer
This great shadow looming out of the darkness
Fixing my fear hard on me
Feets shuffling
Closer and closer
I risked a look
And
Oh my
What a huge puppet!
Standing out
from all the others
Among the old museum.
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Too tired to chase on, can't be bothered to run, I can only stare from afar.
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trying to break away, to forget you, moving away, further and diverging, we're like parallel lines
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Floating up to the surface
To the surface where I can
I can see
Can see the light beyond
The light beyond so seemingly reachable
Reachable almost, almost
Almost letting me touch it
Touch it, the shining it
It moved, now
Now catching the air
Air that appeared so sinister, so
So I let me dream
Dream that, that one day
One day I'll
I'll touch that light
That light that's waiting
Waiting for me
Me and my hand, I can see
I can see it
It
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licking her lips
cracked and prickled
another day went by
with her in the darkness
her dream so small
her hopes minute
drip
she hears
another drip
water
and there goes she
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Alone in the alley, it felt so blissful
Surrounded in the shroud, it felt so peaceful
Deserted in the dark, it felt so hopeful
Standing by your side, it is never wrong
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If that's what you want
I'll let it be
If that's what you like
I'll change for you
If that's what you need
I'll make it happen
If you say it
I'll do it
If you'll be happier elsewhere
I'll let you go
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Am I holding on too hard
yes
Aren't you able to breath
no
Did I cross over the line
yes
Didn't I state clear enough
no
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