Ok I have a journal that I carry around with me and I write down random thoughts. Here are some entries:
November 3, 2008 Monday- If someone wants to talk to me, I don't mind. But I don't want them to talk to me for my sake. They should talk if they want.Because later on, if I start a conversation, it becomes awkward sometimes, or they don't want to listen. I think sometimes I'm better off not talking at all. Unless they ask me a question, I will answer. Speak when spoken to...I thought being a bit more open would be nice, but it just seems to get me in trouble.
I look at everyone (my friends) and see how they act around other people. They seem to do fine without me. I wonder, what it would be like. A day without me, but I'm there to witness what goes on. I shouldn't think like that, but I do.
November 6,2008 Thursday- I write down my thoughts, because I'm afraid I'm going to forget. That's one of my fears. Is to forget something important...
November 13,2008 Thursday- I want to drown in the music I hear. I want to be pulled in and hide in the music. If I listen long enough and if it's loud enough, I may be lost in the music. Everyone would forget I exist and I could listen to music all day.
December 16,2008 Tuesday- I'm a liar to myself.
I lie about things that are true.
I'm afraid to accept it.
I'm afraid of the truth.
December 30, 2008 Tuesday- Wishes are something you hope for.
Dreams are something to work for.
black heart, red tears, broken rose
 vampire_lover12 · Wed Dec 31, 2008 @ 06:35am · 0 Comments |
