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Have you ever had those days where you just want to lock yourself in your room, shut everyone out, and be left alone. Yeah i thought so i have those a lot but if you notice you never get to do that either you get bugged by people asking if your ok or your parents get all paranoid and start asking what's going on, what are you doing, are you all right, do you want to talk; that just gets annoying and people just don’t think that maybe you wanna be left alone sometimes I just want to yell at them to shut up and go to hell but when you end up doing that you feel bad after wards and if your like me saying sorry isn’t easy i get nagged about that a lot how i should open up and let people in well that's always coming from someone how has it all yeah i know that's mean but to be all honest no one really ever knows what your going threw unless they were there we all have different lives and different expectancies and we are not the same so even though it has happened to you, you never really can know what others are going threw as you can see i have a lot to say this is just one of my many ways to talk to people with out actually talking its more of a notice in my thought so if i start boring you then I’m sorry i understand i can be boring but if you agree with me then sweet, awesome and you should e-mail me sometime I’d love to chat but I’m mostly on MSN so if i don’t respond to your e-mail then that's why but you see what i mean right; My moms like that some times the bugging me thing i mean all parents are but she has this insane idea that I’m going to kill myself when i have a very short pain tolerance yeah….don’t believe me ok here “they had to hold be down just to pierce my ears” yeah it was in public to Wal-mart i was screaming and fighting when it comes to how you are you’ll do anything i didn’t care that people saw me i just wanted to get away and when it comes to shots oh god that's even worse i bite my doctor yeah I’m crazy i know but i have a very short pain tolerance like i said so yeah she thinks I’m gonna kill myself HAHA that's about 25% in 5,000% I’d either A.) chicken out or B.) cry and pass out i wouldn’t be able to i just couldn't plus if you have tried to kill yourself you know when your about then your family’s face pops into your head and you see them crying over your death after that you just can’t do that it’s just something that stops you.

Well its getting late so I’ll stop here if you wanna read more just be patient and I’ll post another thing up maybe when i just inspiration hey if you have any idea’s just e-mail me with a subject maybe I’ll talk about it i have a lot to say for a 15 year old and though people think we don’t know a lot they’d be surprised so yeah if you have any questions, comments, or a subject idea just e-mail me missbrittany5@hotmail.com or angeltigerrunt@yahoo.com so contact me anytime and I’ll try to reply so bye everyone ^^