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This poem may not say too much,
some may think it isn't real.
But every single word I write,
is exactly how I feel.

Maybe some have felt this way
like no one ever really cares
Those I thought would have my back
are those who weren't even there.


You say you want the best for me
that you don't want to see me frown.
But is this really all the best?
when all you do is bring me down...


Well I'm just sick of everything
and every word you have to say.
Judging things before you know,
the hurtful comments every day.

Are you suddenly a psychic?
telling me my life ahead
You think you know everything,
try counting all the tears I shed.

Do you think all your shouts and screams
are gonna change the way I act.
You say I'll be no good in life
that's your opinion...not my fact.

Things that never even happened
are already spreading fast.
And slowly now, I start to see
everyone's deceiving mask.

Why are you being so judgmental?
speaking of things that you don't know.
Bringing up these lies about me,
why don't you just let it go.

It's like telling the deaf my secrets
or showing the blind my scars.
Like standing by a stone cold grave
and with the dead watching the stars.

Like listening to the mute's advice
or the paralyzed helping me stand.
That's how you hypocrites befriend me,
something I'll never understand.

Always jumping to conclusions
of how my future's going to be.
You're judging how I live my present,
but your own life you cannot see.

I'm sure you think of different things
every time you hear my name.
But let me make a simple promise
I'm going to always stay the same.

You'll all realize you were wrong,
I'll prove myself to all of you.
I've found my strength in everything
all the things you've put me through.

Don't try to say you have my back
that you'll stay right by my side.
Now I know how fake you are
it's clear to me, you always lied.

Don't tell me I should have control
I've been controlling this too long.
All this rage I've held inside
has somehow kept me strong.

All the secrets I've been keeping,
the painful things inside my heart.
You made me do things I don't want,
you've slowly torn my soul apart.

Neither of you know my pain
or see the tears that I conceal.
Even by looking in my eyes
you'll never know the way I feel.

So when you try to bring me down,
if I fall...I'll fall alone.
But don't you try to help me up
'cuz I can do it on my own...