this is the final summer of my high school career. September i start my Senior Year of high school, and i am a bit reluctant to do so. I wish that i could clear my head long enough to go a day without worrying about failing. not graduating. crap like that. I just dont know what i want to do with my life and i am scared that i wont be able to make it past high school.
I have friends who will tell me that they will help me along the way. I know that they will.
and some of them wont.
Graduation is less than a Calendar year away. Its confusing because i still have two requirements to fill. and i dont know if i can do it in time. I could steel my will now and say that i will. But that wont influence what choices i'll make in november, or december of this school year. June 2007 is my last month of High school and i dont think that i can dread it anymore.
I want to make the best of this summer. and i will. My family and i are going to California for a week in August. So i finally get to lose my Disneyland Virginity. What a step! oh the sarcasm of that. plus my cousin and i are hanging out more than we did during the school year. now that she has two weeks medical leave because of a surgery. My grandparents dont think she should be up and about. But she thinks differently, she doesnt even take her pain pills regularly because she can handle the discomfort. I wish she would take it a little easier. After all, shes the only cousin i have. Her husband doesnt even try and get her to take it slow. But thats just him. He's in love with golf, to say the least. So he plays golf video games until 3Am and its really annoying when everyones else wants to sleep, as he is a compulsive cusser. If i dont hear a profanity from him every other sentence, its either hes with family that you DONT curse in front of, or its a friggin miracle. But hes okay. At least he comes home after work and goes to bed quietly. He works nights so, he really doesnt need to be up during the day, which makes it worse on my cousin, who gets up a five AM to got to her work which is in the day. but again. Medical leave. so she'll be okay.
 aurelia sabina · Fri Jul 07, 2006 @ 11:40pm · 1 Comments |
