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its just too hard - day after day so this is what I have to say take a knife - cut it deep drops of blood before I sleep if I die before I wake life was just too cruel to take relief is felt & blood flows red feeling alive - instead of dead self-hatred, anger, guilt flow out total satisfaction - without a doubt fighting depression everyday insecurities & fear along the way low self-esteem, feelings of dispair but nobody ever said life was fair There's alot of us here - you see abused, broken, wanting to be free were afraid, scarred, needing care looking for help - is anyone there? Don't look at us in disgust a non-judgemental attitude is a must remember we're still lost children inside running from the pain we try to hide just reach out & be a friend dont lie to us or try to pretend give us comfort when we cry so we dont give up & decide to die scars tell a story of the pain inside revealing our secrets we try to hide showing the misery that alot of us share hoping & praying someone will care maybe if you look deep in my eyes you'll see the child behind that cries & the things that murdered her soul & the self-hatred that's taking its toll we numb our brains to stay alive whatever we have to do to survive we cut ourselves & burn our skin to punish ourselves & get rid of sin we're looked upon as freaks & outcasts but were just trying to get rid of the past to destroy the images & lies that were told that left us broken, messed up & cold if you really listen & try to understand maybe I'll trust you & take your hand just listen to me when I need your ears give me your arms to hug away my fears help me rip out the crazy thoughts inside & try to find the part of me that died help me to like myself again stick with me & be a true friend.
xXMuffin of DoomXx · Sat Apr 26, 2008 @ 09:48pm · 0 Comments |
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Why am i alone in here? I feel no pain, I have no fear. But why am I alone in here? It's dark and sad, I must admit, I'm kind of scared, a little bit.
i feel a footstep, hear a sound, but no one's with me on this ground. The grass is warm, the air is cold, the wind will blow, from what I'm told.
Birds will sing, and rain will fly, I'm still alone, I will not die. But in my heart, I am not whole, for you have reached an awful goal.
You have taken my heart away. I will not love another day. I want to love, I really do. But in my soul is only you.
You i hate, for hurting me. I will not live, I will not breathe. Until you choose to give it back, I cannot speak, the need i lack.
I see you walk away from me. You start to run, I start to bleed. You, you have the strength to speak. But you do not, our future bleak.
So many things I wish to tell. They saw the bruises, said i fell. You made me laugh, you made me cry. I cannot love, i cannot die.
I'm in like, but not in love, with a boy, who hates to hug. He's sweet and fun, but not like you, but in another way that's true.
We are friends today it seems. But tomorrow is another dream. For now i sit here, on my own, without a heart, in the dark, sad, cold.
With warm grass, and birds that fly, you might come back, i'll watch you try.
xXMuffin of DoomXx · Sat Apr 26, 2008 @ 06:21pm · 0 Comments |
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The first time we met, I knew I had a friend. The thing I did not know is that I would want to love you until the very end. Your precious love has turned my life completely around, I feel like I'm walking, but my feet don't seem to touch the ground. Sometimes you seem to be my shinning light guiding me through the long, dark night. As I lie alone in bed thinking of you and I I wonder if you think of me too as one more night slowly drags by. I wish I were there with you, kissing your sweet lips under the pale moon light, and holding you, so very tight. You really are the man of my dreams and I can't wait to be with you, for the rest of my life. I know our time away seems like an eternity, but I'll wait forever to be in your life. I love you, I need you, I want you, and I will for all my life.
xXMuffin of DoomXx · Thu Apr 24, 2008 @ 11:22pm · 0 Comments |
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