People used to be active on Web sites. Now they're not, and it makes me even more bored than I already am. Even in real life, people are not as active, for the sake of parallel structure and lack of better words, as they used to be. People keep changing, and the absence of a certain environment is kind of painful to notice. People are having so many conflicts and so many other problems, and they just dwell in the bullshit they're facing, which just makes matters worse. I keep wondering how long it's going to be until everyone just breaks down completely. I know I'm not the only one noticing these things. What happened here? What died in everyone? It wasn't innocence that we knew when we first came to this school. Sure, there was more s**t last year than there should've been (although everything happens for a specific reason; to me, the reason things happened the way they did was to enable certain people to get to know each other better than others because all of our relationships are pre-determined somehow), but that's not really an excuse for such a dramatic change in who everyone is and how they behave. Seeing these things, being involved with them, even merely knowing they're happening, is extremely painful for me. So, what happened? What died in everyone? What purpose do the things that are happening serve? Does it matter? Is it really worth trying? Is it really worth even living?
Don't be an optimist.
Don't be a pessimist.
Be a realist.
I'm seeing the world as it's happening.
There's not much I'm actually happy about.
That's why I'm so freaking dependent.
 AkiraAsphyxia · Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 02:56am · 0 Comments |
