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the past few days iv realized im coming back the person i used to be the happy more kind me it was there the whole time but really weak bombshell is getting angry he doesnt want to be hidden again so now 2 different parts of me are fighting to be me on one hand im tired of everyone hating me cause of bombshell but on the other hand i wasnt being taken advantage of for a short time idk who i want to be if i stay bombshell she'll like me but will i still like her if i go back to the old me i might have more friends i dont know wat to do and i cant choose who to be and im not going through having both in me not again

and all this crap i posted before this and the last one its all been nothing but crap thats not me anymore that was the messed up little kid that wasnt me

ppl keep messaging and commenting me i cant do it not again nobody can get close again they came close before they tricked me they made me feel like someone actually cared but they didnt they took my hopes and crushed them thats when the other side of me came out like another personality i called him bomb shell cause whenever he came out he was a bombshell that soon exploded with anger destruction and pain and it affected everyone around me but he took me over my 2 parts were in a battle and bomb shell won iv never been the same thats why i dont have any friends i try to keep them all away for their own good but then they labeled me an outcast so i kept it that way and why my family hates me so much cause they experienced the first explosion and many more some of u may think this is some kind of story to get sympathy well think that and stay away from me cause when i bombshell explodes theres no telling wat i might do