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******** Little Kids (please excuse my ranting) |
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neutral IF YOU DO NOT LIKE TO HEAR CURSE WORDS OR HEAR ABOUT OTHERS PROBLEMS THEN DO NOT READ THE RED TEXT. SKIP TO THE LUV-A-LY PINK PART!!! exclaim exclaim
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scream I'm declaring December, 18+ month for me (maybe 17 if you act mature). I'm tired of these little girls thinking that just because I'm your friend I'm, either not mature enough or I don't have enough friends. Well, I'm mature enough to not try to kill you when you make me upset, or when you get in my face like I'm 12 or 15 years old... and NEWSFLASH!!!! I have plenty of friends to be with and one of the only reasons I'm still hangin with you is to make sure you don't do something stupid to [******** up your life. Another thing, well I'm about to be 20 so, I am a grown a** woman and who I choose to "chill" or be with is my business, not yours. The day you become legally older then me is the day I give up boys and sex (and anything pretaining to that matter). When you have kids you'll have your hands full trying to dictate their lives. In the mean time you need to worry about your mother (and or father) beating your a** and not about what I do with my ex-boyfriends, my older friends or famliy members. evil SO SHUT THE [********] UP AND GO TO SHCOOL AND DO SOMETHING WITH YOUR LIFE!!!! Now with that said...
stressed To my older friends that are finding it "easy" to talk to them, you need to know that its because they more than likly see some older chump they can take advantage of, and are doing it AND telling me every step along the way (and to whom it has been happening, you know who you are) half of you don't care that they're draging you into the bull s**t with their parents (and that since you're older than 18 you can go to jail if and when they find out where he or she is stare ) ; but the things you're going through I've been there and wised up from the experience so I'm trying to let you know that it doesn't matter how you feel about them because if they're really your friend you'd want what's best for them and tell that person to go the ******** home.... mad
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I'm not trying to tell ppl how to live their lives. I just don't really want my friends to ******** UP, because contray to what some may believe I do care for a great deal of them. So because its your life and I have ehough problems of my own, without trying to help everyone be happy, I'll leave it at that. Just know that I'm hear for you and I'll help you through your problems not take care of them for you.
To whom it may concern:
I love you and you know I do. Even though you maybe angry with me for asking; help me get our friend back on track please, I know you don't hate me more than you loved him. I fear I can not do it myself and maybe he'll listen to you.
 renee16 · Tue Oct 03, 2006 @ 09:47am · 0 Comments |
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Well... here's some good news |
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The school that i'm supposed to be gettin my work from has finally recived the last bit of paper work so now i can get started on gettin the extra credits that i want and that 1.5 that need. I still have to wait about a week before they start sending me my work. On top of that "I" want to relearn french (and by "I" I mean "my mom" wink but at least i still know a little bit... I hope sweatdrop . I think it'll be harder this time 'round because i can't kiss up to the teacher like i did in high school >.<'
Anyway, right now I'm in the process of trying to make everyone around me happy, and i'm failing. so for now i have to take better care of myself,(eat better, sleep earlier and all that jazz) so that i can possibilly make some of the people around me happy. I guess thats all for now. I'll be back soon to give you the up dates on Dee and Tati whee
renee16 · Fri Sep 15, 2006 @ 08:45pm · 0 Comments |
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Well, it's been a while since I've posted and I'm doing better. The guy I'm supposed to be getting ova is now my best friend. >.< Also I've just gotten in contact with some old friends that I used to hang out with all the time.
I know it my be a little lame but i just got a my space page last week >.< So you can check my out there ^^. Its: www.myspace.com/venus314 so yeah 4laugh
renee16 · Thu Aug 24, 2006 @ 03:45am · 0 Comments |
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cry I thought I had everything figured out, but I guess not. Let me just tell you I have a problem. My problem is that i tend to get attached to ppl I say "I love you" to. I can't deal with heart break. I try to be strong but I can't get rid of the feeling that he gives (gave) me. I wish I could just push a button and it would all go away, but I guess god wants us to suffer a bit so that when we are truly happy we'll work hard to keep what we've gained.
Damn it I typed all this and you don't even know what the ******** is going on. Well as you can see I've got boy problems (We'll call this guy "Malice" wink . I think he wants to sever all ties with me. Some of my friends say that he's just toying with me and that I need to get over him, and the faster I do it the faster my life will get better.
But right now I'm talking to my ex. (a nicer one than the jealous jerk (we can call him L) the nicer one is "Foamy" wink Foamy says that I need to figure out whats going on for myself. I'm tired from crying so I'm going to get off now.
renee16 · Tue Jul 25, 2006 @ 12:41am · 0 Comments |
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to make a lone story short she's here and now things are all ******** up.
(To the ppl of witch I'm talking to and about you know how you are)
I think it messed up that you won't even listen to me to hear my side of the ******** story. I guess it won't help that i tell either of you that (to the frist) you didn't see what you think you saw and it was no need to end a friendship over that. (to the second) your older and I expected you to be more open and maybe listen once in a ******** while, but i guess you're to high and mighty to give a s**t about what i think or about what really happend..
but right now i don't have time to deal with any of your drama i'm trying to get my s**t together and make something of myself... to jeri i had no intentions of hurting you in anyway but i guess i have to let you calm down befor you will hear me out, oh yeah, keep your damn man on his leash cause the next time he barks at me it may be his last. talk2hand
renee16 · Thu Feb 23, 2006 @ 01:05am · 0 Comments |
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So, the guy I've been crushing on since the dawn of time... has a son now. sad Its not like I'm mad or anything but.... what a way to find out....oh well at least his singing dream is coming true Right now I'm trying to deal with the fact that my "BF" doesn't really care that much about me (in terms of what I do), but whatever. I'm also very excited 'cause Jeri is coming!!!
I'll prob be alone for the weekend rolleyes like thats something new. So that means I'll be on teh phone almost all weekend (with ppl that actually care eek stare ). Anyway I'm gone for now... 'cause there's nothing else to type about...so bye.
renee16 · Thu Nov 10, 2005 @ 08:33pm · 0 Comments |
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ok...so I thought that i should go for the innocent look for a while. 4laugh I know I haven't been on line in a long, long time... and thats about to change. I've been in reality for too long and I need a break from it. some things are getting to me my sis (my cousin IRL) will not be comming on gaia any more (or so she thinks) and I just got her a one way ticket to come live in D.C. with me (well.... a friend anyway) and I still have to get her some money to eat on the bus trip, so... these things have been warying me down lately ( gonk OMG!!! THE STRESS OF IT ALL!!!)... BUT i will get through this, and the boy issues.... don't get me started... well I guess thats all for now 3nodding ... I'll try to keep you up dated. heart
renee16 · Wed Nov 09, 2005 @ 03:14pm · 0 Comments |
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well.... I've been on.... just not writing much, and I felt like writing so I did 4laugh ... Also... I've just been to look at a couple of friends' journals and I'm very disappointed in one. I've basically been singled out as one of his BIG problems, he prob doesn't even read any of my s**t so if i decide to just ******** give up on this friendship (that I feel that I've been giving and giving more into just to make that arrangement between me, my BF, and him work... mad i'll write more about that later)...he prob won't give a damn... because "s**t happens"... and i guess he doesn't think you can changethe way things turn out by talking,sharing a little, or actually putting some type of emotion out there for other ppl to read.
rolleyes Back to the "three" of us thing (I already know that he (whom we will hinceforth refer to as "X" wink will prob delete me from his list for this (thats how he is. X won't really talk about things he just lets them happens like none of it is his fault) or he'll just block me but i don't care 'cause what i feel matters too!!! evil ) i didn't really mind it at first but then i felt like i was being tossed aside and whats funny about this is that i wanted everyone to be happy so when X asked my BF who asked me (instead of coming to me... we were supposed to be "best" friends ya know) i said "yeah sure" even when my BF(whom we shall call "B" wink asked "are you sure because we don't have to if you don't want to."
... cry i wanted everyone to be happy, i guess i got what i ******** wanted.... oh wellsince i can't really stay mad for long everything will prob be back to normal in a day or two (except now B and i are together and X,... i guess is back to being a third wheel... or something like that) cry why won't they just let me die
renee16 · Wed Sep 21, 2005 @ 07:21am · 0 Comments |
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This is a poem that I wrote because someone pissed me off.
The Truth
Desperate times call for desperate measures.
If I'm a desperate person does that make it better?
I'm tired of pain and betrayal,
I feel like a train that's just been derailed.
So called friends that just make you feel numb.
They seem smart sometimes but then they act dumb.
To love and protect is how it's supposed to be.
So how come you're not protecting me?
Does friendship mean more than I do?
If so then what do I mean to you?
Answer my question, don't leave me hanging.
You close the door while I'm outside banging.
I feel like I'm drowning with no one to save me.
You look at me waiting but you can't see.
I need someone true.
Someone that'll help me through.
Someone that won't make me feel like jumping off the roof.
'Cause sometimes I feel like dying and that's the truth.
renee16 · Thu Jun 23, 2005 @ 04:42am · 0 Comments |
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