Yeah. Ya know how I really love Tom? Well yew should because that's usually all I talk about. I know that there's something wrong. I dont want to admit it but it's true. Yes I may be a LITTLE creepy... and I may be a LITTLE crazy but that's not the point. I know I don't know Tom personally but I feel like I do. And I imagen it sometimes. And sometimes I let my fantasies take over then I go crazy because I think things and ppl like Chey, Vicky, Jake, Jody and other ppl aren't real and they're just ppl that I made up. (But soon I realize that they are so it's fine x3) Well when I make up those fantasies I go real deep into them for a looooooong time. And I feel like I really do know Tom. And when I come to realize that I dont...... I go insane and I cry for hours on end... Especially now since Les isn't in my life.... I guess I really screwed that one up. I hate myself now for it.... Well anyway, back to the story. Well the other day me and Vicky were watching TH TV videos and I started feeling this crazy...... wierd feeling in my gutt. Kinda like butterflies in my tummy. But it wasn't exactly like that. I'm not sure what it was but it was kinda scaring me. But it wasn't like I had never felt this before... I have felt it with 3 other ppl. Their names will not be mentioned but yeah.... I knew the feeling it was just that it had been so long since I had actually felt it again. And it was never that bad before. It was like falling in love with the most greatest thing ever. Ya know? Lol of course ya dont. Yer just teens. Lol jk. You might know what I'm talking about. But it's like... even though I don't know him... haven't even spoke to him... he's still in my heart and it drives me crazy! I need something or someone else to distract me from him and pull me away from my insanity. This is all my fault though. Well it's partly Toni's fault. Yeah that's right! I'm talkin' to you big butt! Yew were the one who first made me pay attention to their Ready, Set, Go video on MTV that night... o.
o" Well anyway xD
If I hadn't screwed up with Les... Or Brian.... Or Jamie... and the rest (who's names aren't worth mentioning).... then this would probably never have happened. See, when I am feeling terrible I have to have something to keep me away from doing anything stupid. So at the time of my loneliness, Tokio Hotel was my best solution. I got hooked on them even more, fell in love with Tom, fell more in love with Tom, felt more lonelier, got desperate then fell more inlove with Tom and now look where I am. I am a sad, single, crazy b***h. =.. If I had my fantasy relationship that I'd always wanted then I'd be fine... and still sane. But since I screwed up all of my chances... I am me.
And I hate it! Dx
Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!
Dont try to test me on you thinking you're a bigger fan than me or Vicky. Because we'll beat you down man we're not kidding.
=D
Isn't that right Paige?
So yeah.
Don't Challenge me man xD
And dont talk down to them to me or around me.
Because I gone get pissed and yew gone end up cut, brused, sore, and hurting :3
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