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Normally I am a private person, so some of this will be private, and only viewable by friends. Mostly sometimes I just need to vent about my life, and have someone listen. I am writer so it is part of my life.
Nerves
Okay, well, this is going to be my first post. And hopefully what I write in here will not cause problems with certain people.

So, the title of this journal entry is 'Nerves' so obviously its got to do with my nerves on a certain subject. Those nerves happen to be about a certain guy that I have fallen in love with. Like I stated before, I really hope he does not get mad at me for posting this. But I am not mentioning any names here.

He, honestly, makes me feel different than any guy in my past has made me feel. But that truly scares me. I suppose it is the whole unknown factor that helps it along. Mostly my nerves involve him ending up: Lying to me about things, start ignoring me for whatever reason, start talking to another girl or already doing it behind my back, and losing interest in me (cause I sometimes think I can be boring. >< wink . The horrible factor in this, is that he has already reassured me several times that he won't do those things. But my past with men is sketchy at best. I have been cheated on, lied to, and hurt so many times that my trust is so broken I don't know what to believe or not anymore.

I hate the fact that I have these fears because in the end they might push him to do the things that I stated above. For me, I personally, don't want what we have to fail on us like my relationships before this have. I am also afraid that perhaps I really am the only one out of us who feels the same. Or perhaps I am being paranoid for no reason. sweatdrop xd .

Anyway, I just had to vent about it. And, truthfully, any advice might help me.



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