Everyday I Show Up At His House And Everyday I Beg That Everything Will Be Better, But Everyday Is The Same. He Is Still The Same Angry Person He Was The Previous Day. I Want Him To Be The Man I Used To Know. The Man Who Would Laugh At My Jokes, Smile If I Smiled, Talk With Me And Loved Me. The Reality Of What He Is Today Hurts And Scares Me Very Deeply. I Feel Like He Is Becoming Disconnected With Me; Maybe Because There Is Something He Cant Cope With Or He Is Not Telling Me. I Search Him For Answers While He Secretly Blames Me For His Suffering. I Feel Helpless; I Think He Is Helpless; I Find Myself Begging For A Miracle. I Wanted And Needed To Place Blame In Order To Deflect My Pain And Find Someone With Answers. The Only Absolution I Was Able To Seek Was Though My Anger In People, The People Who Could Not Make Me As Happy As My Boyfriend Could. I Apologize To Everyone I Have Hurt Along The Way To Making The Love Of My Life Happy; I Cannot Say I Regret Anything.
How Can There Be So Much Hatred Inside Of Him? So Much Anger In His Boiling Hot Blood? So Much Sorrow In His Torn Up Heart? So Much Displeasure In The Happy World I Try So Hard To Portray To Him? I Want To Make Him Happy And Show Him A World He Will Love. Its Not The Same As What He Is Used To; It Is So Much More Happier. I Want Him To See It, But He Must Look Through My Eyes. He Would See The World Differently If He Only Would Try. He Must Learn To Change For The Best, And If That Means I Have To Stick Beside Him Through The Darkness That He Has Been Taught To Love; Just To Help Him See The Bright Blue Sky That I Love; Then All The Pain I Endure Will Be Worth Something Beautiful.
 Snuggles_Puff_N_Stuff · Wed Apr 14, 2010 @ 08:54pm · 0 Comments |
