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Okies... so I've changed... a bunch. I swear... I wasn't TRYING!

Changes over the three years:

Too many changes to my stories with "Chikki" and all those guys... so I'm gonna discontinue the entries with the story in it...
I have ANOTHER story now!
I'm 3 years older than when I last added an entry stare
I'm better with the putting the words together thing.
I have a better sense of humor
More mature (that doesn't mean I'm not childish... and yes it's different)
My favorite anime has changed
I'm not... stupid (I was pretty dumb... intelligent yes... but still dumb)
I know how to make completely illogical things make sense (I've done it before)
Suicidal thought rates have gone down by 90% (it was pretty bad before)
Drawing is lots better... I just need to scan them... w00t
I have the ability to blackmail people with memories (I'm just too nice to do so)
Basically... everything I've tried to do in the past and failed... well... I can do them now!
I can successfully pay attention when my teacher is talking
I CAN STUDY EFFECTIVELY!!! AND REMEMBER TO DO SO!!!
I can read stuff like Aristotle's works and the Federalist papers

Things that haven't changed:

I still use excessive dots...
I'm still random!
Still like rats (just not obsessed with 'em)
I still get overly obsessed with random subjects for short periods of time (don't know what my current one is at the moment...)
I still like anime
I still don't wanna grow up crying
I'm still pathetic when it comes to things that bug/scare me
I can still be a little devil when I want to be
I still believe I can do illogical things... and then realize how stupid I was to think like I was.
I can still hide depression (that's not a good thing)
I still play on Virtual Pet Websites
I have the same friends + more!
I still can't play sports that involve both running and throwing
I still haven't used a swear word (people have told me I will at least once in my life... I don't plan on it)
I'm still a virgin (I don't know why I had to add this... but ya)
I'm still overly sensitive... when it comes to emotion that is
I still have a hard time showing expression and having reactions when it comes to exciting or depressing thoughts. So I have to actually try... which makes it hard because I'm serious... and people may think I'm sarcastic.
I still annoy people to the extreme.
I'm still "strange"


Well... that's basically it. Btw, I am "slightly" depressed... but I can handle the situation. It'll go away... eventually. I try to keep my mind off of it... but it's over a strong desire and I just can't stop! Yes, it's an obsession, but if I was willing to say what it is... people would understand.

I'm trying harder in life than I ever have before... and believe me... I love it! Strangely... I have the ability to be optimistic and humorous when depressed...

Buh-bye!