22 years old and not sure where the years have gone. Been rather unsure of myself for quite some time. My emotional range is not somthing I can seem to measure as it fluxuates here and there.
Part of me feels as though getting a Girlfriend is a bad idea for multiple reasons. Mainly because I feel I am simply not boyfriend material. I fell as though I would do all the wrong things and not be able to keep a girlfriend happy. Not to mention, I tend to feel like a burden now and then.
I make very little money, I am no where near cute or handsom and I'm probably one of the weakest 22 year olds around, soon to be 23.
People say that because of my kindness, I would be a good boyfriend but the thing is that only works if you can even get your foot in the door of starting a relationship and thats useually by when a girl things a guy looks cute or handsom and I already know right now that there is no way any girl could think that of me.
To those who don't know, I was born with a birth deffect that makes it look like I have a huge tumor on the right side of my face but it's not a tumor, it's not somthing that can be cured either.
Despite all this I am still living a good life. I have a loveing family, and I am indeed not uncomfortable where I live. I am a Christian and have been for a long time. I have a good amount of online friends and a few in real life. My hopes are to one day get a job as a writer somewhere so I can afford my own place easily. I suppose that is all for now, might write more later.
 Fates Oblivion · Wed Feb 16, 2011 @ 09:12pm · 0 Comments |
