i became friends with someone i has a secret crush on in language arts class... i pinched him .. and he would get "mad".. and friendly scream at me like "oww.. that hurt.." and then one day in science (my last class) his best friend ryan (didnt know that yet) came up to me and said that cordel likes me and wanted to go out with me.. i had no ideah who it was so i simply said no.. then turned to my friend and asked who is cordel? my friend said "dude.. thats teh guy chu sit by in language arts.." "WHO?!?!" "the guy yew sit by is cordel.." my eyes widened.. and i realized what just happened.. i am bad with other peoples names.. so i had no idea it was him.. class ended.. we left.. my head down i walked to my locker and saw ryan talking to cordel.. i walked faster.. and ryans locker was by myne.. he came to his locker and just looked at me all weirdly.. kinda like a short stare.. i left.. went and got on teh bus.. and relized he rides teh same one (cordel) ~`oh god`~ i thought.. this is my chance.. but he didnt show..
next day.. im walking from class on teh other side of the school as i see my "friend" walking by... he looked at me and said "hey! my friend likes you.." and smiled all funny...i gave him a stare and walked away.. then went to my locker.. and ryan comes to me... "umm.. i-it it was a joke.. h-he doesnt really like you.." i believed him... but i relized after a month he was not serious.. another cover-up.. so i woudnt assume anything.. or spread the word.. after that i noded and walked away.. finally it was language arts time.. ~`maybe i can.. let this fade away.. restart..`~ i thought.. i walked in the class he wasnt there i was early.. i sat at my desk.. he walks in.. sits in a desk one over from me the desk that was open.. ~`noo!! come back.. why??.. ugh finee..`~ the thoughts ran through my head.. and i said "hi" before i could stop the words out of my mouth.. "hey.." he said in low unhappy voice... "hows it going?" "ehh.. fine" "cool"... then the teacher walks in and says "welcome to language arts everyone!!" like always.. `~noo... gives more time.. more time to talk..`~ i kept glancing back at him.. seeing if theres anything interesting going on.. just before i knew it class was over.. and he rushed out of class like a cheetah.. ~`ugh..finally science..`~ i thought then the bus... >:] science took forever!! finally! the bell rang indicating "ok 'kids' go run and throw your shoes in the air.. eat your friggin gum!! were not responsible for you anymore!!!" i almost ran to my locker!! ..to get a good spot on teh bus.. unless i wanted to sit with some sick child.. who coughs all over you! (trust me not very pleasant).... so i got there took my favorite spot.. and waited.. finally my friend shows up with cordel behind her and some other people.. my friend sat by me.. i coudnt help but look at him and tryed to make small talk.. ~` ugh i give up`~ i htought as i stared out the bus window.. after about 20 min.. my friend told meh cordel cant keep his eyes off of me when i dont look.. O.O "rlly?" "cha!!" "wow.. ehh.. creepy.." `~ seriously? oh god just talk to me!! i tryed not its your turn!! i you dont want to talk then fine.. but plz stop staring at me its starting to reak me out..`~ i thought as i saw with teh corner off my eye him behind me staring.. i turned around and said something... he nodded and started talking to his buddy.. ~` D:< what?!? ok fine!! gush!! dont talk to meh!!`~ i thought as i turned my head and pulled on my backpack and got off teh buss... waited for other people to get off... crossed teh street and went home...
And still to this day.. i watch him pass by.. now he is in about 3-4 of my classes instead of just one.. locker behind myne and over... i still like him.. and im sure he still likes me from the stares i get from him.. `~well at least his not with shelby, god i hate her!!! just another stupid mean popular chick..`~ cant i move on?!?!?!
· Wed Sep 09, 2009 @ 10:12pm · 0 Comments