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Life isn't a Fairytale
I never write in this thing anymore, but if I did, I guess I'd just rant or something.
Boy, my life is stressful!
Hey guys. I know no one really reads this anymore, but for those of you who care...here goes.

Well, this week wasn't really too bad. I mean, I got to go in late most days 'cause of the state testing (seniors are exempt <3), and I have a four day weekend (woot woot!). On Thursday, I was on my way to getting my haircut and I was driving through a tunnel. This bus came in as I was going through, and I'm like, wtfb this tunnel is not big enough for a car AND a bus, and, knowing this, I tried to move a little closer to the wall since I was going to get hit. Well, my mirror gets trashed and the passenger side door has scratches all over it. I'm like, FML, and look to the bus, which is unscathed, to get out so I can get away from the wall. It just sits there so I roll my eyes and back out, which probably ruined my car even more. I tell the bus to wait as I'm backing out, and as soon as I'm out of the tunnel, the b***h speeds off! I didn't even get the bus number or bus company, so I have to pay for all of the damages now when the bus was the one at fault. Greaaaaat. It's not that bad now, though. The mirror's semi-fixed, and the scratches...well, they'll just stay there, I guess. :< At least I got a great haircut (for once)! biggrin

The next day I found out I was accepted into one of my top choices: the University of Rochester. I was so happy! I also found out that another school I applied to, the New College of Florida, offered me basically $24,500 in merit-based scholarships, which is basically a full-ride to that school. Problem is, I DO NOT want to go there. There are only 800 students (SO ******** SMALL) and I was hoping for a school with at least 5,000 students. Not only that, but when I visited it, I didn't feel "it." You know, when you go and just feel that this is the place you want to spend the next four years of your life. I have yet to visit UR or the University of Notre Dame, but I'm sure I'll like those a lot more. I also visited the other school I was accepted to, the University of Delaware, and it's all right. But yeah, I went to the ortho. and found out that I'm gonna have to wear these braces for yet another month. God, I wanted them off before school ends, but it doesn't look like that's going to happen. It really pisses me off because they keep telling me I'm getting them off at the next appt. and then pushing the date back. But I did get my X-Rays, which is apparently something they do towards the very end. :<

I got home and my dad found out about the scholarship and basically told me that if a school offers me a full ride to it, he's not paying a cent towards any other school, even though I don't want to go to it. We got into this big argument about it all and I said I'd rather go to the community college 5 miles down the street than go to NCF, which is his alma mater. It might have been perfect for someone who graduated HS at age 16, but it's definitely not for me, and I know what I want better than anyone. He came into my room a few hours ago and told me not to rule anything out until we've heard back from all of the other schools, and I told him I didn't want to go to New College. He just rolled his eyes and left. I'm sorry, but I am dead set against this. I care about more than just how "good" the school is. I look at study abroad programs, sports opportunities (and NCF is the Honors College of Florida so I could only do intramural sports), clubs, theatre, vocal music activities (don't got any at NCF), class size, student population size, diversity, aesthetics of the college, and the name--yes, even the name. I'm sorry, but I just can't see myself wearing a hoodie with the words "New College" plastered on the front of it. I just don't want to be forced towards a college I don't want to go to. I feel I owe it to myself to go somewhere I can be happy and inspired, since I've been so unhappy with my high school. He didn't care though. All he cares about is money. My mom isn't really pushing me towards anywhere, but she said, "money talks." Whatever, though. rolleyes

I have so much to do. I have to write an essay tomorrow for world lit. and read 2 chapters of this book called "Freakonomics" and start working on my senior research presentation, which is due on April 3rd. I'll try and get through it all though. It's just so hard trying to juggle so many things at once, and trying to do things I want without letting my grades drop. I'm on a different medicine now, though, which is making me more determined and focused than I was before. I think the drop in my grades is mostly due to the fact that I switched to a new medicine and the dosage was too low, making me not want to do anything. The dosage was increased and the ticks it gave me are pretty much gone, so I feel a lot better now. ^_^

On another note, I love the new EI by pepper-tea, the Reve Rouille! I love the hat pose and am looking forward to seeing what it will eventually become. n_n Like my new avatar though? And be honest! smile

Anyways, that's pretty much all I have to say right now, so see 'ya! biggrin

-Kyle





 
 
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