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I'm not entirely sure what all will go here yet... Probably some of my poetry, some of the things from my Bible time, some book/movie reviews, and some random rants on what's going on in my life at the moment.
My Life as of 8/13/09
I've been having an awesome week!

The other day I got two letters from my friend Oz, who is currently in basic training, which I was really excited about. The things he said in one of them really touched me, as did the fact that he sent the letter itself (he hadn't received a reply to his last letter yet, but he wanted to write me anyway...) Oz is one of my big brothers, really, and I love him just as much as I love my biological brothers, so hearing from him is always nice.

I also got a call yesterday asking me if I am interested in working at my church's daycare... I want to teach young kids, so the fact that I am being given the opportunity to work in a daycare floored me, especially one so close to my home and where I know so many of the people. I'm super pumped!

Um... I go to take my driver's test again tomorrow. EEK! I failed it the first time, so I'm scared senseless. I also have to go have a TB test and a mini physical (to check my back) to make sure I am capable of working with kids and find my social security card for a background check. I'm gonna be super busy. I also have to call a woman I've babysat for to see if I can use her as a reference. Fun fun. lol

So... That's what's going on in my life. Because of the new job, I may not get to go to Oz's and Ed's basic training graduation (Ed is another friend of mine in basic), which sucks, but I'll find out for sure when I go to turn my forms in tomorrow.

And school starts Tuesday. Ugh.

Ok, so I'm really done now. Wish me luck!


True Beauty
Psalms 139:13-16

13 For you created my inmost being;
you knit me together in my mother's womb.

14 I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made;
your works are wonderful,
I know that full well.

15 My frame was not hidden from you
when I was made in the secret place.
When I was woven together in the depths of the earth,

16 your eyes saw my unformed body.
All the days ordained for me
were written in your book
before one of them came to be.

“Little girl fourteen flipping through a magazine
Says she wants to look that way
But her hair isn't straight her body isn't fake
And she's always felt overweight

Well little girl fourteen I wish that you could see
That beauty is within your heart
And you were made with such care your skin your body and your hair
Are perfect just the way they are

There could never be a more beautiful you
Don't buy the lies disguises and hoops they make you jump through
You were made to fill a purpose that only you could do
So there could never be a more beautiful you

Little girl twenty-one the things that you've already done
Anything to get ahead
And you say you've got a man but he's got another plan
Only wants what you will do instead

Well little girl twenty-one you never thought that this would come
You starve yourself to play the part
But I can promise you there's a man whose love is true
And he'll treat you like the jewel you are

So turn around you're not too far
To back away be who you are
To change your path go another way
It's not too late you can be saved
If you feel depressed with past regrets
The shameful nights hope to forget
Can disappear they can all be washed away
By the one who's strong can right your wrongs
Can rid your fears dry all your tears
And change the way you look at this big world
He will take your dark distorted view
And with His light He will show you truth
And again you'll see through the eyes of a little girl”

- “More Beautiful You” by Johnny Diaz


Ok, so it’s kind of a girlie blog today, but guys, a lot of this can and does apply to you too!

I very rarely feel pretty or beautiful. And all honesty, by the world’s standards, I’m not. I’m overweight, often pimply, and I tend to wear baggy t-shirts a bit too often. But y’know, most of the time I’m ok with that.

Because according to God’s word, I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and I am who God created me to be. So I am beautiful, not because of what I look like, but because the Creator of the universe made me!

Above, in Psalms 139, David is talking about how God knows you and is with you wherever you go. He created everything about you. He knit us together in our mothers’ wombs… And He loves us.

So what I want everyone reading this to know one thing: YOU ARE ABSOLUTELY, BREATHTAKINGLY BEAUTIFUL!

As my friend Oz would say, “Would God, the Creator of the universe, have created you without a purpose? No! So don’t shame God’s creation by putting yourself down, ok?” (Can you tell I’ve heard this more than once?)

You know, I feel really hypocritical writing this… Because I can honestly say that I don’t generally think of myself as beautiful, especially when I’m looking in a mirror. So even me saying I am beautiful feels… off. But when I look at those around me, I see beautiful people inside and out, no matter what they look like because GOD created them, and they were made by HIS hands.

Slowly, He’s teaching me how to see the beauty in those around me, and He’s used a few of my friends to show me that even if I don’t fit the stereotypical beauty, that I might be beautiful anyway. Not because of who I am or what I look like but because I am God’s creation and Christ is in me.

The same goes for personality, guys. When we come to know Christ, we are a new creation… GOD’S creation. Yes, we still sin no matter how hard we try not to, but we are His creation. And the qualities He has given to you make you who you are, so don’t put down your goofiness or your stubbornness. They are how God made you, and why should you ask to change that? (Unless they cause you to sin, in which you need to ask God to mold you into the you he made you to be. Don’t try to change yourself to be someone else, because no creation of man can better God’s creation.)

So, to sum up, BE THE YOU GOD MADE YOU TO BE, in personality and in physicality. Don’t try to change yourself to conform to the world’s standards. Be the you God is calling you to be, and you will never be more beautiful… And remember. You are beautiful! And you are fearfully and WONDERFULLY made.

That’s all for now… Oh! And check out that song at the top. It’s awesome.

And last thing... Thank you to the people in my life that God is using to teach me... I love you guys so much and I thank God for you all daily.

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