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Yeah, yeah, watch my f***ing language, I don't give a rip
I don't believe this. My mom is making me go up to Illinois to spend Christmas with the dad I hate who's gonna drag me off to some stupid race track or country music concert or another tour of his gay-a** work place and I have absolutely no say in it. This is wonderful. And on top of all that, this girl that I don't know if I wanna hang out with anymore just totally cussed me out! Come on, like I wanted to frickin' come to school with my jacket off and let everyone know I'm a cutter. Yeah right. Just cuz she can't live without the whole world knowing her deepest, darkest secrets or having all the attention and pity and sympathy in the world, doesn't mean some of us don't want to be ignored! I admit, forgetting to wear my jacket was my fault. But it's not like I didn't try to hide my arm; it's just that by sixth period I'd already given up trying cuz everyone could see it. Excuse me for not wanting to waste my efforts trying to hide s**t from ppl that half the time don't know I'm here anyway. Yes, dammit, I know noone ******** cares about me and my ******** pathetic life, and yes, I know noone's gonna ******** show up at my ******** funeral that I won't even have (not even me) Not even to ******** dance on my grave and live it the hell up cuz they're so ******** glad I'm gone. ******** liars. Speaking of liars, I'm gonna ******** kill that b***h who thinks she's gothic. He went out with me, not you, get the hell over it! Anyways, maybe it would've been better if my boyfriend went out with her instead. Then he wouldn't have had to cheat on anyone and I wouldn't have had to tell anyone about that dude that raped me three years ago. One less person would know I'm a cutter, and I wouldn't have had to cut so much the last time when my English teacher saw it. Colonel Walker, man, he went off on me when he saw my arm, especially when I lied and said my cat's vicious when you try to get her outside -- which is true, but that's not what happened to my arm. A safety pin and a pocket knife happened. That's all.
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