I seem to have fallen out of bounds
i seem to have fallen out of reach
Of that dream I see
Shining gloriously in front of me.
I have fallen out of bounds
i have fallen out of reach,
I have cried in fear and joy
But without fail I shall win.
I shall become known,
I shall become feared
I shall become respected
But what should happen. . .
If I live again? If I breathe again?
Will everything from before replay itself before my eyes?
Will I be alone? Would I be unknown
and left in the dark?
Would I be left to bleed? Will I be resented for the things I've done. . .will I be rememebered like that?
What have I done to deserve Their looks, Their stares.
Their viper tongues flicking endlessly
with Their acidic lies...
Their sacred voices whispering
Hateful decrese of tricks
Their turns slithering around my very being
My Body becoming usless around me
Making me bleed
Making me scream
My arms paralyzed, unsure of what to do
Their painful tales destroy me,
Slowly trying to take hold
Trying to engulf me. . .
I wish to live
I wish to breathe
I wish to be well in my times of Darkness
In the shadows of the Dark,
I see my dream flickering tauntingly
wanting me to catch it. . .
I feel as if I run after it tirelessly...
Wishing to know. . .
How many times, how many lies, how many truths, the amount I can take til I shatter. . .how many lies will I take til I break. . .and
If I do break. . .
If I do shatter
Will I be forever gone?
Will I leave this world as a Loner?
As a monster?
Will all who I leave behind
Be alright? Will they survive without me?
Will they forget...me?
These thoughts I have. . .
These post-death questions. . .
They fill my heart with guilt and pain. . .
Making me regret my Life...
I stare out into the dark
Wondering about this pain
My breath quickening. . .with the fear of being gone. . .
With the will to live. . .The want to be myself again. . .
I suddenly see what I have been
dreaming all this time. . .
Their warm faces looking down on me. . .
But they are not smiling. . .their faces are warm but sorrow fills their eyes.
They wish to be repented
They wish for me to be still.
"It is not your time," She whispered as she started to disappear from my view. "You still have so much to offer. . ."
I felt my arms regain strength but I dared not move. . .
For she was my mother who I have lost long ago. . .
I wished to hug her, wished to love her. . .
But I was full of hatred and despire
I was filled with regret as I felt my eyes close.
Their acidic lies and faces. . .THEIR viper face.
They surround my being
Cursing at my Life, muttering hateful curses,
Transforming my Soul. . .
I wished to be rid of Their lies!
Be rid of Their faces, Their beings!
I wished to destroy Them and Their viper lives!
I was surrounded by Them and transformed to Their liking. . .
But I became Their nightmares. . .
I shall inflict pain on Them! What They tried to create shall no longer scream without a sound...
It shall crush the world in two and it shall make Them understand
How it feels to be on the other side. . .
They shall know how it feels to scream without a sound. . .to have no one there for Them. . .
. . . . ..
Yes. . .I shall do this.
I shall live
I shall breathe again
I shall win against Their sacred lies. . .
The world They know shall come to an
End.
They will learn the pain of being alone
The pain of loss. . .
. . .
They shall learn everything. . .
And. . ..
They shall finally. . .
Know who I truly am. . .
i seem to have fallen out of reach
Of that dream I see
Shining gloriously in front of me.
I have fallen out of bounds
i have fallen out of reach,
I have cried in fear and joy
But without fail I shall win.
I shall become known,
I shall become feared
I shall become respected
But what should happen. . .
If I live again? If I breathe again?
Will everything from before replay itself before my eyes?
Will I be alone? Would I be unknown
and left in the dark?
Would I be left to bleed? Will I be resented for the things I've done. . .will I be rememebered like that?
What have I done to deserve Their looks, Their stares.
Their viper tongues flicking endlessly
with Their acidic lies...
Their sacred voices whispering
Hateful decrese of tricks
Their turns slithering around my very being
My Body becoming usless around me
Making me bleed
Making me scream
My arms paralyzed, unsure of what to do
Their painful tales destroy me,
Slowly trying to take hold
Trying to engulf me. . .
I wish to live
I wish to breathe
I wish to be well in my times of Darkness
In the shadows of the Dark,
I see my dream flickering tauntingly
wanting me to catch it. . .
I feel as if I run after it tirelessly...
Wishing to know. . .
How many times, how many lies, how many truths, the amount I can take til I shatter. . .how many lies will I take til I break. . .and
If I do break. . .
If I do shatter
Will I be forever gone?
Will I leave this world as a Loner?
As a monster?
Will all who I leave behind
Be alright? Will they survive without me?
Will they forget...me?
These thoughts I have. . .
These post-death questions. . .
They fill my heart with guilt and pain. . .
Making me regret my Life...
I stare out into the dark
Wondering about this pain
My breath quickening. . .with the fear of being gone. . .
With the will to live. . .The want to be myself again. . .
I suddenly see what I have been
dreaming all this time. . .
Their warm faces looking down on me. . .
But they are not smiling. . .their faces are warm but sorrow fills their eyes.
They wish to be repented
They wish for me to be still.
"It is not your time," She whispered as she started to disappear from my view. "You still have so much to offer. . ."
I felt my arms regain strength but I dared not move. . .
For she was my mother who I have lost long ago. . .
I wished to hug her, wished to love her. . .
But I was full of hatred and despire
I was filled with regret as I felt my eyes close.
Their acidic lies and faces. . .THEIR viper face.
They surround my being
Cursing at my Life, muttering hateful curses,
Transforming my Soul. . .
I wished to be rid of Their lies!
Be rid of Their faces, Their beings!
I wished to destroy Them and Their viper lives!
I was surrounded by Them and transformed to Their liking. . .
But I became Their nightmares. . .
I shall inflict pain on Them! What They tried to create shall no longer scream without a sound...
It shall crush the world in two and it shall make Them understand
How it feels to be on the other side. . .
They shall know how it feels to scream without a sound. . .to have no one there for Them. . .
. . . . ..
Yes. . .I shall do this.
I shall live
I shall breathe again
I shall win against Their sacred lies. . .
The world They know shall come to an
End.
They will learn the pain of being alone
The pain of loss. . .
. . .
They shall learn everything. . .
And. . ..
They shall finally. . .
Know who I truly am. . .
