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Thankyou soooo much everyone! ^_^

People in this world piss me off. They act like its thiers when its not.
Like you can keep all the friends you want just by simply telling them a different story everytime you see them. I hope you slip someday; I really do. I hope you trip over that huge lying green tongue and everybody knows how two faced you really are. I found my path. You didn't think I would make friends with one of your other groups did you? That I would learn what crap you said behind my back? You two faced... never mind.
I'm angry but I'm not; and now your telling me to keep one thing from another one of your friends because she might actually *care*!!!???
I'm angry because I feel that once I was replaced I was no longer needed; and whenever you two fought, you came back to me, but after awhile you just became "too cool" to hang out with me and now I'm partally ignored. Does it shame you that one of your friends lives in a crappy trailer, barely making enough to support herself? That I don't need mommy and daddy to pay for half my crap!?
And when reality strikes you go into an instant pity me trip. Life doesn't go the way you want it, so what? It never has for me, probably never will, but I will keep fighting my way to the top. As long as I have these hands and myown opinions I will never stop this fight. You can give up when the going gets rough, but you'll always be that b***h that runs.
*ahem* but actually, at the same time I'm not angry because I do pity you on what happened to your parents; it sucks and I don't really have any advice on what to do; but maybe you should sit down and think about what direction your going in life.

Yesterday I finally went to the doctar because of some heavy mood swings, nausia and and fatigue I've been having and He has concluded that I'm chronically depressed. I didn't argue; it's been a shitty year and my MoJo hasn't been the same since ('specially since Mr. Vash died).
He also said there sounds like there is a chance I have a major Theighroid (sp?) infection, so I got a blood test and still await the answers.
It's also been concluded I've had waay too much weight gain in the last 4 months (42 pounds) but it could be because of the Theighroid infection, which can cause sudden weight gain apperently.
When the news reached my mother, all she said is: "Your not stressed! What the hell are you talking about!??" It pissed me off when she said that. It's like she hasn't been paying attention to all those times on the weekends when I would call daddy depressed and he would take the 48 mile drive to come see me. Did she ever wonder why!!!???... But this IS my mother. I think she's going senile. I really do.
another thing- There's a "home warming party" at my parents tomarrow and I just learned my oldest sister should be showing up. I am not pleased that my parents did not tell me; but I can guess why (me and my sister do not get along at all) I felt... Left in the shadows. I don't know what to do.

Next month (May 30th) is mine and Eric's (Divin_dragon) 1 year anniversary! We got a mini suite at Circus Circus booked and putting a heftie amount of money on the side so we can actually go out and *do* something on our anniversary. I'm very excited. Why can't it be May 30th yet!!!????

Well, just got back from my cousin/best friends marriage. It was nice, I cried a whole bunch at how beautiful she was.
I'm going to another wedding on Sunday for mine and my fiance's friends (wayne and Theresa)
Oh yeah, I forgot to mention, my man proposed last night XD
guh, brain... froze....