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Today memories are flooding back to me like a bad dream. Why are all these thoughts coming back to me? Why do they have to be of him? I wasted my time on him. He hurt me. Yet i start to think about him at this moment. I need my sanity. I need my peace, but I can't get my fix now. My fix is like a drug to me but isn't actually a drug. It is a person. His name is Lukest and I love him. Maybe I'm crazy but as long as I have him I feel sane, but currently there is nothing to save me from myself. I keep thinking and it is destroying me. I miss Lukest. I miss my drug. How long do I have to go to get my fix? I will wait and try to be patient. Try not to think. How long will it last?