Well as the title says.. I'm sitting home with nothing to do.. Wondering what should I do? Is boredom the complete way to go? I say not! I could be working on my geography damned University work. (did I just say a bad word?). I doubt that will happen, I have lots of time to do it, and I guess I'll do it a little later on. I could go out... but that would involve me spending money stressed sweatdrop I guess that isn't going to happen anytime soon, unless it's to guy a chocolate bar or something. I best watch out for the chocolate bars, I tend to be gaining weight. I've gained a full pant size as embarrassing as it sounds. It tear's me up inside to see me gaining even a little. I work 4 long years to lose 50 pounds. I did it. I never expect, for the minute I move out of home, that I gain some of it back. It lessens someone's self esteem, makes me feel unattractive, unlooked at, and like I'm now just some fat kid. I was the fat kid all my life, and lost it. Became the nerd kid. Now I'm the fat nerd kid. Is it fair? I don't think so. Why is the world so closely related to weight? 20 Years ago, it wouldn't have meant anything to gain 10-20 pounds. Today it's the end of the world, and you shouldn't be seen in public. It's quite discouraging. Why don't you go against the crowd and feel good about yourself even though you've gaint a little weight, you ask? Easier said then done. A world were you can get a job, and refused a job, by the way you look, a world where the only people that you see on magazines are the thinnest of the thin, and the men only gawk at those oh so tall, os soo skinny legged women. Is it possible to feel good about yourself in situations like these? I'm going to make it possible. Queen Latifa... Beautiful woman. A symbol to all of us with a bit of hips. And J-LO a symbol to all of those with a bit of you know what. Why can't we be happy? We're successful, we're beautiful, we work harder then anyone else, we fight harder than anyone else, we are the strong, not the weak. The weak are those who are too thin, would break in half, and those who can't see us for what we really are. Amazing people, with great strength. We are lawyers, we are doctors, may not be models, but why would we? To starve ourselves so men can imagine us, and want us in a way that that no man should. It's disgusting. We can be proud, we can stand tall, we can push out of that crowd. We are the women that have gaint.. .we are still women. I'm a University student with a bright scientific career ahead of me.. My slight gain will not effect me, it will push me, to finish the class year, to move on, and not look back.... Thank you 10-20 pounds...
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