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Im alone and i dont know who to turn to . . . . . . . . My younger brothers are getting into so much trouble at school! Can you believe a five year old recieving a suspention? well my five year old little brother has, hes become an obsessive liar saying our fathers dead and that hes killed people not to mention exposing himself to about half of his school. My eight year old brothers mential problems are getting much worse and hes become verry violent and rebellious for a child his age, not to mention hes much bigger than the average eight year old. My life oh what a hell hole. I feel like Ive lost my best friend. I reach out to her and she shoots her back to me every time every god damn time, and yet Ive surpressed my feelings well no more I cant take it I'm a nervous reck. I have feelings for someone I shouldnt and who am I susposed to ask for advice about that if I wont even go to see my guidence counsler at school I trust him with everything but I cant bring myself to ask him for help I'm scared I dont want to ruin my family life. . . . . I'm scared I'm ******** terifyed he wouldnt accept me if I expressed who I really am on the inside. I cant stop the tears, the pain, and the pain I'm causing my self. . . . . The presures forcing me to act on pure anger hurting myself so I dont hurt others but in doing so I'm showing myself how much I really do need help I need an out to the stress and the one I once ran to has become the verry sorce of my self hate so tell me what do I do I'm scared. . . . . . . . . I want cunfort I want safety and love but wear is it in my life the only voices of kindness I hear are the voices of animals who will accept you no matter what if only our kind could learn more from the creatures of mother earth and unite us together as a happy whole but who am I kidding I'm dreaming . . .
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