...Since I last posted here.
I've grown so much closer to Christ. It was about the beginning of summer or so when I became a true Disciple of Christ. It was absolutely incredible, and things have only gotten harder and better and happier and sadder and so much more. I can't fit here all of the things which have happened concerning this particular subject, since I last posted, but it's been amazing. ^^
I also had the most incredible relationship with the greatest guy I've ever known for almost eleven straight months.. but he broke up with me a few weeks ago. I'm still completely in love with him, but it's all right. I just worry about him every day.. And I keep praying for him every day. I wish I knew what made him start to hate me.. but I really have no idea... We never had even one fight in all of those eleven months that we were together. But according to him, he stopped loving me completely in a matter of.. one night. And he just kept dating me for a couple of weeks like everything was fine until he couldn't handle it anymore or something. He never told me there was something wrong, even though I sensed it and asked him so many times I couldn't see straight. But oh well.. God took care of me and my broken heart. The very day he broke up with me (in fact, only a few minutes afterward), when Michelle and Lenzie and I were headed to church, Michelle suddenly said, "Whoa! Look up at the sky!" and in front of us was the largest, most brilliant rainbow that I've ever seen in my entire life! It looked like something from a Skittles commercial, it was so full and complete and vibrant. It was then that I knew that God was telling me, "Everything's going to be all right," and "I'm keeping My promise to you." He promised He would always take care of Nathan. And I know that God is taking care of him, if not in exactly the same way that I always did. He's probably honestly being harder on Nathan now that he doesn't have anybody to really guide him...
Anywho, that's really the most impacting stuff that's happened to me, thus far. I hope you enjoyed reading these events and I probably won't post another update for quite some time, just so you know. I don't keep up with this journal whatsoever. Lolz. Bye, all!
· Sat Sep 13, 2008 @ 02:45am · 0 Comments