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i am just an encounter
forgotten
with a few words said
words that hurt.
i am sorry
guess that doesn't faze you
your gone.
it breaks me up inside
to know i screwed up so
bad.
to be left alone.
i miss you
thats all i can say
but its not enough.

Once upon a time I think I knew what love meant But all my heart's emotions have been spent There is something dangerous in the air tonight Dancing through our senses like some jasmine scented sprite I feel the distance growing between us two And though we lie together I still can't reach out to you You once swore false "Leave and I'll die" Now as I start walking you don't even sigh I want to start running; I'm not sure to or away I've been in the dark too long; I can't survive through the day We are tied to each other with roses and the thorns go astray Might kill me if I try to leave, but they hurt me as I stay Tears of blood well over and cascade from my eyes But somehow you fail to notice, locked in battle with amber skies We both feel it ending, what can we do? Shall I bleed myself dry rather than part with you? If we gazed at each other I would stay If we looked in the same direction I wouldn't run away But I look not at you, you look away from me Each so caught up with our own idea of the future that we don't see The only thing that keeps us from falling apart Are the rose scented thorns piercing our hearts.

Teach me what this is to be Show me how to be lonely You walk away as I reach out Is this the love you told me so much about? Please tell me promise me no Please don't turn, please don't go Why do you walk away when I start to need? Why don't you care when I start to bleed? Why are you so blind to my tears? Why are you so deaf to my fears? It's because you're gone So long I never tried to be cold To drive you so far away But facing another fake smile I'm running out of reasons to stay I look at your back Trying so hard but I wonder why How much can I mean to you When others care more that I cry? Whether I'm with or without you I feel so empty inside I watch you laughing with the other girls And wonder what it is that you hide

Hurt by you
Broken by you
now i am stronger by you
i see you
around
we don't talk
what's there to say?
i don't want to nag
so i'll just go away
hope you are happy
i am slowly getting there
knowing each moment
you don't hurt anymore
i was used thought i was loved
then you broke me into to peices
to know you could care less
hurt me bad
but now i am slowly getting better
i found a new on to love
who will not hurt me
just to see my pain
thanks for the memories good and bad
without them i would have never been
strong enough to move on.

ok i am kinda crushed right now...
becuase my friend told me to taday that her mom hates me and that is why she can't go to our party. and i don't know how to feel about it i do feel kinda hurt but then again i kinda expected her not to come... shes been acting weird lately and i don't know how to tell her why i think she is acting weird grrrrrrrrrrr i hate confusing friendships sweatdrop stressed

Hands touch, eyes meet
Sudden silence, sudden heat
Hearts leap in a giddy whirl
He could be that boy
But I'm not that girl.

Don't dream too far
Don't lose sight of who you are
Don't remember that rush of joy
He could be that boy
I'm not that girl

Ev'ry so often we long to steal
To the land of what-might-have-been
But that doesn't soften the ache we feel
When reality sets back in

Blithe smile, lithe limb
She who's winsome, she wins him
Gold hair with gentle curl
That's the girl he chose
And heaven knows
I'm not that girl...

Don't wish, don't start
Wishing only wounds the heart
I wasn't born for the rose and pearl
There's a girl I know
He loves her so
I'm not that girl...