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I just got back from a party not long ago and I found out that my nasty ex was saying horrible stuff about me right after we broke up.

With him life was horrible, I always tried my best for him even though the things he did to me should land him in jail. After he broke up with me he kept messing with my head, sending me mixed messages all while he was already with another girl (cheated on me) who I had considered a friend and out doing s**t with her. After I found out, I broke ties with him and that's when the harassment started.

I feel conflicted on it. I feel shitty because I had loved him (or was in love with the guy he pretended to be) and truly cared about him and his opinion. I feel angry he would do that. And nostalgic because some of what I had heard he'd been saying was some of what he'd say when he was insulting me. It still affects me I guess, but the feelings are almost completely detached, like I can't fully feel them. Now even though yeah it bothers me, I don't entirely care.

It's just odd really. He turned some people against me and made my life even worse. Nothing's really happened since I moved but there's been some minor things that I won't get into.

Right now, after typing this out I feel better and it's basically all rolled off me. I'm going to watch more tv and play some violent video games and I'll be back to 100% biggrin