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I hate when you're trying so hard to keep yourself from exploding. From showing tears. You want everyone to see you happy. Because your happiness makes them happy. Even when they're at their worse. Everyone wants to be happy. Even if it means they're alone. Me? I don't like being alone. Being alone is one of my biggest fears and it is the last thing I ever need.

I hold so much in, but when someone ask me, "What's wrong?" or "Are you okay?" I just lose it and break down into a million tears. I don't like bringing people into my problems. I don't like stressing them out with my bullshit because they probably have their own bullshit to take care of. So, I put on the mask that everyone is so fond of seeing and hide my true feelings. Its for the best.