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Why do I have to take the pain of feeling sick to my stomach every single day? I will never look at him the same way again. I will never look at her the same way again. The only thing I can do is look in disgust, disappointment, and anger. What the ******** did I do to deserve this? I will forever carry this huge, gaping wound that may heal so slowly it's like it's not healing at all.

Why did kindling have to be continuously added to the fire? Why wasn't water used to put the flames out? Well now I'm burned to a crisp and it's all your fault.

- Oh, look at me everybody! I just ******** Kathy's boyfriend! Haha, look at me! It's so much fun to screw her over!
- Indeed! She's such a horrible girlfriend. I don't even know what I was doing staying with her. Oh, what a horrible mistake that was!
- Yes! Come over to my house and we'll do some naughty things to further hurt her! Won't that be fun?

That basically sums up the past year of my life. And you know what I think? ******** YOU! ******** YOU ALL! ******** MY RELATIONSHIP BECAUSE IT MAY NOT HAVE MEANT ANYTHING TO MY BOYFRIEND BUT IT DID TO ME. ******** SOMEONE WHO I USED TO CONSIDER MY BEST FRIEND BECAUSE OBVIOUSLY THEY DIDN'T CONSIDER ME A BEST FRIEND. ******** ANTHONY! ******** ROSE ANNE! MY HEART IS BROKEN AND I'VE BEEN STABBED IN THE BACK. ROSE ANNE DOESN'T EVEN ******** CARE. RIGHT NOW SHE CARES MORE ABOUT LESSENING THE TENSION BETWEEN HER AND ANTHONY MEANWHILE SHE HAS DONE ABSOLUTELY NOTHING TO PATCH THINGS UP WITH ME FOR A WHOLE DAMN YEAR. ******** YOU! I HATE YOU! IF YOU DON'T GIVE A ******** ABOUT ME THEN I GODDAMN WON'T GIVE A FLYING ******** ABOUT YOU! GO GET RUN OVER BY A TRUCK.

I would smash the side of the road if I did not get fined.
I would tear down the curtains if I did not need shade.
I would forget about my school work if my future was already given to me.
I would scream at the top of my lungs if I did not get strange looks.
I would turn everyone against you if I had no heart.
I would hurt you deeply like you did me if I did not love you.