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Why does love really hurts?

What's these??? A heart broken? oh...I see...Love's Quarell??? hmm...I get it! LOVE HURTS!!!...
I've already had these feeling being hurt by someone I love...telling you it really sucks! I wanted to hate them but I can't...well...Who's the one person who hurt me most? hmm...I can say that the guy I really love...I used to understand him...and make him forget all about those FREAKING F****** stuff...but I just can't help it...I just wanna ask him...what should I do to make him happy....

Am I do right?
Am I more than her?
Am I the best?
Did I make you happy?
Did I your one true love?
Am I enough?
What should I do?
What is your real feelings for me?
Did you forget her?
Did I so harm to you?
Am I stupid?
Am I weird?
Am I crazy?
Do you want me?
Do you love me?
Do you care for me?
Do you still want her?
Did I do wrong?
Am I a freak?

these are the questions coming out of my mind... crying I wish I was a hard hearted...can't feel a thing...no feelings...no expressions...didn't hurt a lot...I know that I am stupid...I've already know...I HATE YOU! but I can't...I am not perfect you know...people think that once a girl is sexy,beautiful,gorgeous,attractive and smart...is also called the "PERFECT GIRL!" well...among those...I have nothing...All I have is being a kind-hearted that wants to love...I am such a wicked girl...wondering in the middle of nowhere...my friends saying to cheer up and let you be you want to be...but I can't agree...as for now...I am making my decision...and my decision is..."IS IT THE RIGHT TIME TO LET GO?" I really...wanna let go...but It is hurts to be lonesome again...being in a dark hollow place...staring at my own shadow...making friends who didn't want me...I am nothing in this world! I am a piece of $#!%!!! and no one matters...and no one to care...even my parents leave me too...everybody leaves me...that's why I wanna die...he says..."Is my love wasn't enough MJ?!" I say that it is enough...but still can't feel it...and I don't no why?! Am I being heartless??? Am I stupid??? I really can't feel it! WHAT IS THE ******** WRONG WITH ME???" I hate myself...I hate him and I hate everybody...I just can't think! Is the time ticking?! Yes...it is ticking...can I stop it?...No you can't! I wanna think...I wanna know what's the ******** wrong with me...I wanna be alone for just one day...so that I can think...because this world really sucks!!! domokun

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