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My dreams are dark angels,
they come upon silent wings.
that are folded at their sides.
Like me they like to hide
all the misery....they are lost.
inside the doors
the lies are locked
truth,
their prisoner, falls behind.
A slow and steady walk.
We'll find rest.
Again, im not the best.
I always fail at that test.
It binds me here.
Dispair has shown me kindness.
Darkness covers me, keeps me warm.
Sadness, he is my friend.
Fate is my protector.
Death doth love me as does fear.
Cruelty has shown me his kindness.
And misery laughs........
misery.......
laughs at it all.....
 Amara_starleaf · Mon Jul 03, 2006 @ 06:30am · 0 Comments |
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the starts of 2 songs that i cant find the entierty of. |
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dreaming.:
im dreamin
and scheemin
but youre slippin away.
from the heartache
and the screamin
so we can live another day.
we must not go insane,
because i am all that remains of my life.
(i have the song in its entirety somewhere, but i need to find my other blue notebook)
fallen angel.:
are you blind?
or do you see me now?
standing here?
right in front of you?
or do you fear?
that if you reach out ill fade away
like the mist of a cloud
(chourus)
cuz im a
fallen angel
and im sent here to save you.
but to save you first
you must take hold of my hand.
cuz no matter, how youre cryin
ill still stand here tryin
to help you find your way to earth again.
(again, it has like 5 more verses but ive gotta find my blue notebook)
Amara_starleaf · Sat May 27, 2006 @ 07:22am · 0 Comments |
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I hide my feelings,
i push them down
the only things keeping me from
solid ground
i mus tbe crszy
am i just mad?
ive had no life for oh so long
spent it far to long just sad.
my mind is broken
my spirit lost
the words were spoken
but at what cost?
just live to cry another day
why do i stay
why do i stay
why do i stay?
WHY DO I STAY!
no one must witness
the trauma
the pain
my tears, they fall,
they are the rain.
why do i love him?
why do i stay?
why cant i make the shadows fall away?
am i just dreaming?
but why do i feel pain?
just misbelieving,
wishing it would fall away.
living this heart ache
living this pain
pushing at reality
make it go away.
i cannot look into the mirror
my eyes betray such pain.
my eternal thunder
my eternal rain.
my ate is seething
waiting to let go.
so why am i beliving
that i love him so?
waiting for deliverance,
dreaming of some peace
but peace and love and happiness
lay only in my dreams.
my mind is reeling
because of all the pain.
because of the betrayal
because he is insane
death and dispair
are all that lie ahead.
so i stay here dreaming
lying in my bed.
the reason i am this way is because of all the pain.
my eternal hunger,
....my battle
the rain.
Amara_starleaf · Sat May 27, 2006 @ 07:15am · 0 Comments |
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Suicide
I want to see it pour,
to se it drip and pool upon the floor.
I sit waiting, watching the clock,
Never again will i talk.
that would wake them up.
i want to see it dark, shining, red
before they wake and find me dead.
feel it draining from the cut,
my blood, mine. The only thing that ever was.
except for, that is, my thoughts.
but those too will die with me.
as they look upon the scene with horror,
my spirit, finally free, would soar.
such a selfish thing to do
dead in time for morning dew.
finally happy, finally free
for i know that none would mourn for me.
no one cares what i have thought
so why should they care? now that i rot?
watching it drip, watching it drain
with its flow it takes my pain
im so happy i wish it would rain
not with water, but with tears,
let them realize thier deepest fears
let them see what they have done
endless rain without the sun.
while i lay smiling in a pool of red
finally happy, finally dead.
Amara_starleaf · Fri May 26, 2006 @ 11:02pm · 1 Comments |
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