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Well Im in college and I'm majoring in my passion in life, which is fashion design. When I first started school I felt a major sense of accomplishment. I wasn't sitting on my a**, or off getting knocked up somewhere like the other half of my senior class. So it was all great I was totally up for it.
So not I;m like half way into my first year of school, paying shitloads of money (because art college is hella expensive...20k a year) and I realized that I don't need to go to school for fashion design! Honestly we sit in class and do the dumbest remedial work ever. For example:
My Professor says, "The opposite color of violet is yellow." And then she goes into this spiel about why they're opposites and how cool it is that you mix them and they make brown. I'm totally falling asleep here, and then she calls on me to tell her the triads on the ********' color wheel...like it's rocket science. So once I answer correctly, we then go on to do a painting project (nonrepresnetative...meaning squiggly lines and circles) about the opposite colors! Wow how stimulating!
So after enduring this for six months I;ve decided to leave fashion design alone for some years and go to a liberal arts college for psychology. I figure since I haveADD, if I'm challenged with something I know nothing about...maybe I'll be motivated to succeed. Seeing as my GPA is like 1.64...i have to boost my grades to transfer.
Whatever college sucks a**!
 Tamala · Sat Mar 17, 2007 @ 06:42am · 0 Comments |
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Well I haven't written in a long time. Like a seriously long time. I will write an update soon I guess. I've been so busy lately. Relationship problems I guess. Whats so weird about it is I listened to Kelly clarkson's new song "Because of You". OMG everytime I hear it I cry because it explains the reason why I'm the way I am in life. I wish I could just play it to everyone who wonders why I never let people get close to me. The song is from her experience with her parents getting divorced when she was 6(which is the exact same age when my parents got divorced). Here are the lyrics:
"Because Of You"
I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid
I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing
Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I try my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid
Because of you
Because of you
3nodding
Tamala · Tue Oct 04, 2005 @ 11:33pm · 0 Comments |
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Anyways I just got back from a trip to Miami at 2 this morning.
I had so much fun. I love going on trips without parents. Parents make everything boring. On the trip my guy issues went away and finally resolved themselves. I had a great time soaking up the sun and chillin' on the beach with my friends. The hotel was awesome and the guys on the beach were gorgeous (despite a few old guys trying to hit on me). I wish I could have stayed longer. The best thing about it wass it was FREE!!!
I'm in a summer program that pays you 15 a week (which isn't much) but it pays for your transportation and food. Also you go on free trips. And at the end of the program we have a four day trip.
First off......My guy issues.
If you've seen my recent journal entry you would know that I had three guys that I was seeing potential in.
One guy was really cute but way too shy. During the trip he fell off, he was still really shy although he was alot nicer than usual. In the end he couldn't build up the courage to tell me what he had to say.
The second guy was the one I liked the most and I knew he liked me but I was waiting on him to tell me. He finally told me, and we hung out alot on the trip. It was like a movie. Hanging out on the beach with a guy you like. We took walks along the beach and watched the ocean at night. It so pretty. whee
And the last guy was a guy who I just usually fool around with. Of course the pattern continued and I fooled around with him abit on the trip. But nothing serious, just alittle playing around anf feeling eachother up.
I took tons of pictures maybe I'll upload some of them and put them here in my journal.
The hotel had an ocean view and the beds were comfortable. The only thing is that was bad was that it was like a private hotel and so it was small. Because of that it only had like three elevators! So it took way too long for them to get to our floor.
We went on a dinner cruise and saw some celebrity homes. We saw Shaq standing in his yard at his home. My favorite house was the house Scarface was filmed in.
All in all it was a great trip.I must say I love Gwen Stefani's CD. heart
More on my trip later. 3nodding
Random forwarded message I recieved:
I shave my legs,
>I sit down to pee.
>And I can justify any shopping spree.
>Don't go to a barber, but a beauty salon.
>I can get a massage without a hard-on.
>I can balance the checkbook,
>I can pump my own gas.
>Can talk to my friends about the size of my a**.
>My beauty's a masterpiece and yes, it takes long.
>At least I can admit to others when I'm wrong.
>I don't drive in circles, at any cost.
>And I don't have a problem admitting I'm lost.
>I never forget an important date.
>You just gotta deal with it, I'm usually late.
>I don't watch movies with lots of gore.
>Don't need instant replay to remember the score.
>I won't lose my hair, I don't get jock itch.
>And just cause I'm assertive, Don't call me a b***h.
>Don't say to your friends, Oh yeah, I can get her.
>In your dreams, my dear, I can do better!
>Flowers are okay,
>But jewelry's best.
>Look at me you idiot...
>Not at my chest????
>I don't have a problem,
>With Expressing my feelings.
>I know when you're lying,
>You look at the ceiling.
>DON'T call me a GIRL ,
>a BABE or a CHICK .
>I am a WOMAN.
>Get it?, you d**k!?!
>
>Now,you must forward this to at least 4 FEMALES or you will have a
>HORRIBLE streak of bad love life. Plus it's funny, and all ladies
>should see this.
Tamala · Mon Jul 18, 2005 @ 11:36pm · 1 Comments |
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I haven't written anything in a while. Anyway, lately i've been in this summer program at Georgia State University. Who would i be if I weren't having guy problems. This time it involves a couple of college guys. xp
Anyways the problem is I have like three potentials, but I like all of them. So what did I do? I decided I would just have all of them...well by that I mean flirt with all of them all the time.
There is guy 1, who I would never have as a boyfriend but I still like messin' around with him sometimes.
Then there is guy 2, who is very shy and quiet and I know he likes me but I don't know if he'll ever find the courage to come out an say it. I think I may like him the most, but then i"m not sure because he doesn't even flirt as much as the other guys.
Then there is guy 3, guy three is the one who has told me he likes me. My friend liked him first but I ended up snatching him up (by mistake). I like him, he looks nice, but not usually my type. I can't garauntee that if we got together I would be faithful to him.
So I'm stuck. I don't think I want a boyfriend, because I've been single for a while now and I like my freedom. I like being able to do whatever I want to do without worrying about someone else. heart
Anyways I have a fun week coming up...one monday I'm going to White Waters, on tuesday Six Flags, wednesday we have a college tour, and on friday I get to go shopping for my trip next week to Miami!
I love miami so much I know it's going to be tons of fun, plus I can't wait to show off my new swimsuit, and see which one of the guys kicks it up a notch (I've been watching Emeril too much sweatdrop ).
I'll keep ya posted. mrgreen
Tamala · Sat Jul 02, 2005 @ 03:35pm · 1 Comments |
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I'm off school tomorrow, teacher workday or something. I thought I had to go to school tomorrow but I found out I'm off. I love when that happens. It's like a little surprise or something. Anyways I may go to this little vintage shop in little 5 points. I fear the emos and the goths will eat me though. gonk
Oh well they need alittle color in their life...I bet I'll get weird looks the whole time. xp I'm an attention whore so it may be fun.
I like oreos. heart
Tamala · Mon Apr 11, 2005 @ 06:01am · 2 Comments |
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Anyways I went to get my eyebrows done today and the friggin b***h hardly left any of my eyebrow!
Anyways I really just wanted to show a picture of my idiotic dog and show a picture of how ******** up she made my eyebrows.
Dude wtf is going on with my hair in this picture? Haha jk, not my best picture ever...but whatever. xp
Tamala · Sat Apr 09, 2005 @ 03:06am · 6 Comments |
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Victoria's Secret Shhhhhhhhh.......... |
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Anyways so today I went to Victoria's Secret and bought an extremely over priced mini skirt. It was so cute. It's dark denim and its such a good quality skirt! whee
It's totally awesome, and I bought like 10 pairs of new panties. And I bought a shirt from Vicki's Secret. I swear that's favorite store...and yes I am a spoiled brat.
So Things to get list....
Mocassins w/sequins $60
Heels from Nine west$75
American Eagle Shopping spree....$200
Ipod speaker $159
Powerbook (apple) $1000
I can't even remember the rest....
Looks like my ma and dad are gonna be coming out of their pockets for a while now. sweatdrop
May as well put this here....Thanks Soulessdog whee
Tamala · Fri Apr 08, 2005 @ 02:36am · 0 Comments |
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I'm on spring break this week. I'm so glad, I needed a break from school and all the stupid guys that hit on me daily.
I don't know what I'm going to do for the rest of the week. Anyways I broke up with my boyfriend last friday. He seemed kinda confused, but that's because he thought everything was great. He's a great boyfriend, but not for me.
So now I have my sites on another guy named Phillip. He doesn't have as much money as Josh but he sure has all the qualities I'm looking for.
I went shopping yesterday and like all last week. I bought so many clothes that I probably will never ever wear. But I'd like to think I will.
OMG, I just realized I'M SPOILED!!! gonk
Naw, I already figured that out like a month ago. Nothings wrong with being spoiled as long as your personality is great. xp
Tamala · Tue Apr 05, 2005 @ 11:34pm · 0 Comments |
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Well the fashion show turned out fabulous. We had a few technical difficulties at the beginning but it turned out to be cool. Everyone complimented me on the stage set up and the seating arrangment (I was the leader of these ares). So it was awesome. I love walking down the runway, it was awesome and it gives you a rush. I am such an attention whore though. xp I wish we could have another one.
Anyways, while we're talking about repeat performances. I guess I should say that I'm gonna break up with my current boy-f. He is great but not for me. He's not aggressive(sp?) enough for my liking. Anyways this guy I did talk to during the summer has popped up in my mind. He recently just moved back to Georgia so I'm thinking I may take a stab at it. It can't hurt. But don't get me wrong, I'm not breaking up with my boy-f for this other guy. It's because it's not working out and I don't want to cheat on him. stressed
I think I'm just really confused right now, or I have a short attention span.
Tamala · Tue Mar 22, 2005 @ 04:11am · 2 Comments |
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