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I don`t know if its true or not, but i really do think that he has left. I don`t know maybe I`m just being paranoid, however for the last few days there have been these clues, all of them leading to the same conclusion... hes gone.
All I can think about now is the last time I saw him, which was this time last week and that was only from a distance, I havent seen him since. Its another clue i think to myself. Another clue added to the whole list that i have in my head driving me crazy... but he must be gone i can feel it and you can hardly blame me for worrying because everyone else seems to disappear at some point.
Am I obsessed... I mean I have no need to be upset for i can not be sure that he has gone. Its either one of two things: It could be that The clues all fit together and hes gone and I`ll never see him again or its I`m just being stupid.
I do hope that he hasn`t left because at the moment i don`t know whether hes left or not and I feel like ******** s**t and I`ll feel even worse if its true. I mean you know when your upset, but you can hold in the tears, well for him i couldnt and whats worse is i feel that i have no where else to turn or no one to turn to...
I feel so isolated and I`ve even become behind on my course work... the only thing i think about that though is 'Who cares.'
I feel that self harm is the only relief i get from the hurt.......... sounds stupid but its true how many times can one person be hurt and how long can one person take it. emo
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oh s**t!
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