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What has been happening to me while I was gone |
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When I first made this Gaiaonline account, I believe I was 14 or 13. But the thing is, I disappeared from this site for a few years. Now I am finally back, and my head is in the right place, I'm a smarter person, and I am a better person.
What happened when I first disappeared? I found friends outside of the internet! So I get distracted by that, and took more time with my friends on the internet. Other than that, I became an extremely hardcore gamer. To the point that gaming was all I did, alone, with friends, or over the internet.
Through that time I went through that teenage phase fueled entirely by emotional teenage angst. I wallowed about in my own self pity, seeking attention and pity from other people. I lost a few friends with my idiotic attention seeking ways.
And then, I found something to distract me from my angst; World of Warcraft. Yes, my buddy mike got me addicted to that game. I've been playing it for four years now. That was right when I disappeared from Gaia. Do not judge me, and do not stereo type me. If you honestly think WoW is some sort of life ruining monstrosity, that does nothing but make people fat stupid nerds. Then you yourself are an idiot, it is only a video game, just like any other.
During my WoW days I slowly began to sink back towards depression. My best friend in the world, and the only girl I've held so close to me to call her a sister, managed to keep me up in spirits. I truly love her for what she did for me. I love her of course, in a brother-sister kind of way. But eventually I just kept sinking. Until I took a stand and said "******** this! I have no real reason to be sad, It's time for me to stop wallowing in pity like some little girl who doesn't get her way." And so I did. I found a reason to go on, and I'm still going.
*EDIT*: I forgot to mention this, but somewhere in this time line I shattered my right leg, and now I have a giant metal rod inside my leg. I got addicted to the pain killers I was put on and I eventually got out of it. Now my memory isn't what it used to be. Though that is rather obvious now isn't it. razz
At that point, I got a Facebook page, And I use that quite Avidly. My new found confidence helped me find more friends, and better friends. I give advise to all my friends, to help them through their problems, and their issues. Nobody likes being sad and alone, I know that much. So I am always the shoulder to lean on if you ever need me. Unless you're a total d**k to me, then I'm most likely to look away.
Before my school years had ended, I had made myself friends with just about everybody in my little school, including the teachers. My school had so many nice teachers, and I will always thank them for pushing me through to the end. When I graduated from High-school I almost felt sad to have to say goodbye. I will go back and visit them some day.
A couple months after I graduated from High-school, I got in contact with an old friend of mine. She and I exchanged texts, as she was in Kentucky right now visiting family. Somehow it lead to me asking her to be my girlfriend. Now she's home in New York with me again, and we both love each other very much.
Also, did I mention I cut 28 inches of hair off my head and donated it? Aren't I nice.
Hisaki Somatsu · Thu Sep 09, 2010 @ 08:43pm · 0 Comments |
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