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psyco is what i do/ a death so sweet you can almost taste it well the title somewhat goes with what i put in this thing. i will probably just put random things that pop into my head, and well i won't get in to detail there (but my friends already know). and i will probably put some serious things that i thin


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Be Something More
Can you hear me call your name?
Can't you see that i want you more than anything?
Can't you tell that I've loved you from the begining?
Can you see me?
I'm right here waiting.

I want to tell you how I feel,
but I'm afriad you'll regret me
even being your friend.
I know I have to make a sacrifice.
I just don't know which choice to choose.

I want to see your sweet smile everyday,
but I want your smile to be just for me.
I want to hear your sweet voice,
but I want to be the one to hear it when no one is around.
Though sadly all i get from you
is a smile that says,
"I'll always be out of your reach"
and a hint in your voice that tells me,
"I only see you as a friend".

If I have to choose between what i want,
and what i have...
Than i choose to still want to be something more,
even if you only want to have me as a friend.

I know I'll never get over you.
I won't live like i used to
cause all i see in my mind is you.

I'll always want to be something more to you
than just me.



~~Robin Stubbs~~

|| written: Aug.29-06 ||
|| typed: Nov.8-06 ||





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My heart ripped out,
right in front of my eyes.
The pain so crucial,
I can’t even breathe.
Maybe I don’t deserve to live,
maybe I need to die.
I need my tears wiped away,
I need my suffering to cease.

But I need to be myself again,
the girl not affected by anything,
the person I used to be.

The happiness from me drained,
The smiles dead.
You took everything from me.
You were the one, who made me die.
The one who made me forget about my life
just because I wanted to be with you.

I left everything for you and
you left me for her.
So now I have nothing and no one to live for.
Nothing left, now not even me.



- Robin Stubbs

October 7, 2006




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A life for a life
"A life for a life"
he said.
I didn't think it was true,

But now I know what he means
it was either me or his girlfriend.
He let me make that decision.

I made that decision and I chose well.
I let her live,
I lived too,
but he didn't.

I made sure they were together when I did it,
I made sure she watched.
I always thought I had something evil in me,
I just never believed it.

As I had him in the corner
and his girlfriend under the table,
I grabbed the knife in the kitchen.
Then walked up to him
and said
"a life for a life.......sweetie".

Then I hacked at him,
I wanted him to suffer,
and I wanted her to watch.

I wanted her to know
how it feels.
How the pain just comes
and won't leave,
and how you can't do anything.
I wanted her to feel week,
insignificant.

As I had my fun,
I finally sliced his throat,
and I told her "if you say anything
to anyone,
I will kill you too
the same way I did it to him".

Then I walked out.
With the knife still in my hand
and she was still there
under the table.


--Robin Stubbs


April 29, 2006





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Him
Confused and dazed
I watched him
I watched as he just sat and stared at her
Why her?
Why not me?
Just look at me once
Just say "hi" to me
Or my name
I want him to notice me
But I won't change myself
It doesn't matter that I love him
And he doesn't know
I will make him know
I will make him know me
One way or another

I asked to be excused from class
"I don't feel well" I say
The teacher nods her head and lets me leave
Not aware of what I am about to do
No one is aware of what I am about to do

I walk to the roof of school
I already picked the perfect spot
Where he will see me through the window
Where everyone will see me through the window

I do it
I make that fatal move into nothingness
That move to death
I jump

I leave my eyes open
To see his face
His reaction to my "fall"
His shock, his terror
And then him screaming "No"
The only person who paid attention to me
Or at least tried to "save" me

But too late
I can't be "saved"



--Robin Stubbs


April 4, 2006




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the last days together
The Last days together


the days may becoming to an end
but yet i do not find myself crying
i do not find myself sad
maybe because in the back of my mind
i know i will see you all again

even if to you, it seems like the end
just keep your chin up
and your thoughts clear
and will be fine, and happy
smiles beautiful and tears away
and we will see eachother
one day


-Robin Stubbs




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