New Year's Realizations [COMPLETE]
Happy New Year Everybody! smile
Last night I was able to escape into solitude, on our terrace that faces the neighborhood. I sat there, thinking... Listening to the whistling of fireworks in the near distance.
It was a soothing cool night... I was able to clear my mind like I never did before.
Then BAM!! One of those really loud fireworks shot the dull silence in the sky. I jumped, heart beating. I thought to myself, "Man... I really needed that." To feel my own reaction, a lot of things became clear to me. Don't ask me why because they just did. Again the night was silent, only a few whistlers shot out from time to time. It gave me a whole new feeling.. I was at peace with myself.
After awhile, my brother and I went to walk around the somewhat empty neighborhood of ours. Very few people were at their homes.. As we passed the people who were there, we greeted them a good evening and a happy new year.
However, not all were as polite, most just stared at us as if they didn't know what to say. The feeling that was felt in the terrace was no more, I felt as if I did bad to them. That it was wrong of me to greet them that night.
When we got home, I went up to the terrace again. Hoping to find the sense of security in myself that was lost during our walk. Sadly, when I reached my destination, already the fireworks were taking their sad after effects. I still tried to sit there in the smoke, but it became too much for me, and more and more loud fireworks were being lit. Well... As I sat in the smoke. I could have sworn it sounded like a battle field. "Is this really worth it for the new year?" I kept asking myself. Images of the little children who got too close to the fireworks started rolling into my head, "Imagine how many fingers that one blew up.." "How many suffer in the Hospitals tonight?" "Is this all.. worth celebrating for..?".
It's amazing how a change of atmosphere will dampen your mood, your thoughts, and opinions. There are a lot of people who lose it when they can't find inner peace in themselves. Even the politics and government officials are corrupt because all they think about is money. They haven't found true peace within themselves.
When you've truly attained peace, the atmosphere no longer matters. Why? Because you understand. You understand what you must, and you'll find that you'd be surprisingly calm in situation that would otherwise send you running.
Wow... I really hope I remember this one.. X___x;;
"To change the world... start small. Start with yourself, you'll know when you've truly achieved inner peace when you're calm in any situation you encounter."
 stephi-JK · Tue Jan 01, 2008 @ 07:58am · 3 Comments |
