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life

lifeless and waiting silent with sound we'll sit and wait untill love comes around.

it seem if the only great thing in life it great disapointment becuz that all i ever get any more i try to do some thing to fix it but still its broken just once i would like to see some thing work in my favor but knowing me and who i am and what my life turning out to be i fine it point less to try any more i hate everyone becuz know one wants to step up and be willing to take a hit and not just fighting any thing i take risks all the time for other people they get what they want i help out but then and i get s**t for it then after that the person i help stabes me in the back how do you people that that feels after geting it more and more all the ******** time ya well try it, it feel like hot acid being pored in to you ribs and the nailed to a wall you just one big joke some one to laugh at and stand next to becuz you never know when youll need a corps like me to take the fall to help you becuz you dont have the to do it your self i meen come on half the people in the world wont just step up i do i think that make me the out cast becuz i can handle the raw truth i know the s**t people dont want to know or beleave im telling you know there is no god 9 11 was fix and bush is a ******** up bag of money that needs ajusting and i meen the germanys in the cold war ya i know s**t that people dont i know alot more then i tell any one but know that makes me a freak that makes me gay or a f** or some stupid loser right i know its cool but its people like me that well servive in the end im just to ready for some thing bad to happen god dam some time i just with i would get shot just so i can stand up and tell every one thats how you take a bullet that how you stick up for your beleaves. i dont know any more iv lost my fath in human kind ill be better off living alone in the woods or some thing i cant handle the way people are any more the world is a harsh place but it never had to be every one needs to change i have now why dont you.

i'm fighting back fists and all if i get my a** kick well i get to deal with it but i hate me self for letting things happen i know you didn't want me fighting but your just going to have to love a punk me and my friends are having more fun and i'm taking my life in my own hand i can stand by and watch the world shot at me and throw lies at me i'm standing with my own two feet and my friends if that wont help me then there not any one that wants to be my friend i'm sorry but i'm doing alot more things i know you wont like i'm still smoking ill quiet after i meet you and know i'm still what you want i'm still not sure if you know thats what you want. i love you still but iv gone cold tord most i know but why would i care what that think im just a ******** crazy white boy said some black boy in my school ******** him i dont care i cant stand the world any more i think its time for people to stand up and fight back gangs government im meen there both hurting the USA we build this place for the people not for gangs and the government to take over and kill us slowly i want peace but you can gane peace with out first fighting for it im not scared of death im not scared of must stuff people are. really people race show know longer be a problime i meen god dam it get over your selfs stand up stand next to me and see im right im not telling you all what to do but listening it always a good stranth to have ******** the worlds going to hell what are you doing to help it? hm? hm? what im meen i want to change i did im not taking s**t from people any more im standing my ground kick my a** but ill fight for what i beleave is right you really going to hurt some one for standing up for there beleaves do it ill take it ******** my little qeer gay ******** up crazy a** up fight me i dont care just do it already.

i am matt or to my loved once teddy i dont thing my last name is going to be kept but its johnson why the hell i care who i am i dont know im typeing this to show a part of me one in any mood i hate my life death is only the start to were i ended so let get me on proxy.


i dont thing i care much for human kind. im not insane even though i may seem weird and out of place in my head or crazy to you i cant spell well so ******** you to who ever wants to correct me i do not care i dont like people a whole lot because the world is being ******** over because of you people i love my planet but cant what to leave it im a jerk but i can be kind youll know what i can if it like you or not dont bother trying to look and see you like me or you hate me its pointless like most every thing in the s**t head world im a big metal head for people that dont know i love metal music i love techno i love punk and rock i ******** hate and despize rap and country there to close and then the same to me i dont care what you thing dont tell me just let it in comments i wont reply but i dont care i think racism is a load of ******** s**t and more sexism and every hate (ism) there is out there!!! we are all the ******** same a** holes get not shut up and ******** unite already i want off the planet and on to the new one but first we need a new one found so get the ******** out there plus i dont trust pills of any kind drugs, meds. anything so dont bother asking ******** pills kills got it wether you want to beleave me or not shut up if you still reading you can tell i can be every vulgar well ******** you if you like it ******** you plus i would like to say ******** skin head out there i ******** hate you stupid asses for one good reason i wanted to be a skinhead because the true skin heads were british and there were teenages that like to get wild and fight and just all to gether go insane to have so much fun and now you ******** had to go and turn it in to a racist thing ******** you all and die in a back yard i hate how poeple take some thing cool and fun every one over. you all can do drugs for all i care just stop killing people stop the shootings and s**t im good with a gun and better with a sword and knife so thing you thoughts befor threats meet my ears im not insane but killing it some thing i can live with ferther more US people need to look up ******** the goverment is ******** us in the a** we were blit for the people not to use the people come on do some thing im ******** 18 and i started geting in to at 14 s**t open your eyes people ******** war dam if you want people to die use bombs i would rather start over on earth then live in this s**t hole people you need to fix the way we all live but first we all need to change to save us all or kill us all but ether way im done for now i can stand that s**t iv already come up with may my worlds help you moronic worlds.

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chapter 6

hey rachel im going to just lay down ok?*ask fox*sure but can i lay next to you? i like being near you*as she blushes and her face get pink*ya sure i dont care*said fox* hey fox whats it like living alone?*asked rachel*well its ok i gess it lonly when freinds arnt around, why do you ask?*asked fox*i dont know just wondering i gess*said rachel*im going to just pass out here ok i cant move much im tired*said fox as his eyes are alreadly closed*i dont mind, ill be right here if you need any thing from me, ok well im just going to lay here to night i gess.*said rachel as she gets closer to listen to him rest in her bed* i want to ask you some thing... cani come with you?*asked rachel as fox its bearly awake* mhm*fox said as he wasnt listening to her to tired to hear*ok thank you fox*said rachel* mhm*replies fox* rachel trys to relax be has tuble sence she so nervise but almost not becuz he still owns her*

end of chapter 6

hey funs its been a while so give me a bit a slack better dont just enjoy it.

last left off with ok from rachel.


ill get right to it after i stop blushing ok fox?*fox looks at her*dont worry about it ill befine just let my body take some more time and it will be healed by then...*rachel looks up at fox* i need to make sure your ok, your arms was broken where your brews is that was the wrest spot.*foxs looks down*i have freind but why would you keep helping me you could have go in truble hell you still can*said fox* i know but i dont care living here is more of a pain for me then this will ever be i want to leave but i dont have the power or much of the will for it im scare to leave how do you live so far from home and not get scared you may be kill or beaten for leaving?how did you do it?*rachel asked fox*becuz i have no home i dont sleep much and i was on my own at the age of five year when my vampire side kicked in, mom was scared i gess little boys dont walk on the wall of disapear with out making a sound i dont know what to do i was lock in my room not window i wanted freinds so when dad and mom had a fight with the next door nabors and every one to i left easy as any thing i do*fox looks a way and stops talking*im sorry i didnt meen to bring up that kind of thing*said rachel*its fine,ill just sit here so you can work on my bandages*fox sits next to rachel as she sits up crewling her legs changing his bandages starting to think about running away with him or ask him to take her with him but douting her self a little*


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