well about a month ago i broke up woth well basically the love of my life
why?
well like she broke my heart she cheated on me 5 times and had sex with another guy
this all took place over a course of 3 months we went out for 7 i think
but honestly i loved her more than ive eever loved anyone and she loved me but she wouldnt stop drinking and when she drank she cheated on me sad
i kept asking her and asking her but it didnt help
i just loved her so much whenever i think about her with another guy i break down
cuz i was her first and she was mine and i thought it would always be like that
i still love her even tho i shouldnt shes always on my mind and i cant stop thinking about her
ive been truly heartbroken
when ever we kissed or hugged i felt so happy and i know its gonna be a really long time till i actually get over her
she was the best thing to ever happen to me
even tho i broke up with her i still cryed
and sometimes i still do cry
i just wish we were back together
all of the things we said to eachother all the i love you's and kisses
and like i got her pregnant nad thats still on my concience (she had an abortion:[ )
i know the abortion thing sounds ******** up (im against it) but we really had no choice neither one of us couldve supported a baby
but still she knows how i feel about breaking up with her
she knows that i love her and miss her
and im pretty shure she still loves and misses me but until she gets of the drugs there isnt a chance for us
and thats not happening anytime soon
i dont know what to do
i kinda need some advice sad
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