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Tuesday, November 30, 2004 |
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sweatdrop ... Was readlly busy with A.P. Homework so... stressed not my fault. lol... *sigh* bored with life even more and feel like I can't take the struggle anymore. sad I need to go live somewhere in peace and be free and independent...
So far I am skateboarding my bordom away...
Quote: <center>Your future doesn't pave itself, you must pave it yourself. |=||Daniel Lim||=|</center>
 Neji-San · Wed Dec 01, 2004 @ 03:21am · 1 Comments |
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Yay! Today is Fall Fest 3nodding *Gets ready and brings nunchaku, uniform, and bokken*
Quote: <center>Even though you corner a fast rabbit, it still can bite. -=)0(|Daniel Lim|)0(=-</center>
Neji-San · Sat Oct 30, 2004 @ 01:18am · 3 Comments |
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Thursday, October 28, 2004 |
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Yesterday, I was soooo busy with church so I didn't get to fill in my previous journal o(T^T)o. Soooo sooorrryyyyy SUMIMASEN!!!.
Well today I left school and taking day off so yea. I'm like burnt out. Life isn't easy.
Quote: <center>"Society percieves through eyes clouded, implicating that society is purely clear and translucent; an apparent window, yet it bears reflections, smears, and scratches, it can never be cleansed and/or repaired. This is not optimism but pessimism, you cannot every get only earn temporary optimism." ~Daniel Lim~ "The fate of chaos leads to the joy of rebirth." ~Daniel Lim~</center>
Neji-San · Thu Oct 28, 2004 @ 07:43pm · 0 Comments |
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Tuesday, October 26, 2004 |
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Today I had:
- had school with it's terrifying A.P. homework
- drew horror pics such as Ju-on (a.k.a. The Grudge)
- Reduced Auto Insurance like 50%
Thats basically it. sad *Now runs off to spend like 12 hours on A.P. Homework.
Quote: <center>"There is no such true happiness in the world." (.-_-).Daniel Lim.(-_-.) "Life is a waste." o(T-T)oDaniel Limo(T-T)o</center>
Neji-San · Wed Oct 27, 2004 @ 01:46am · 0 Comments |
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Today was like an average day stare ....
Did the following:
- School
- A.P. Homwork
- Guitar
- Akido
- Organization for College
- Languages
*sigh* I feel like going to a skate park or something, my life is a reck... I have no freedom and I'm chain to homework. I'm not happy with my physical look, I hate the stuff my parents want me to wear. I can't wait to leave and start a life of my own.
Quote: <center>"Weapons are not for protection, it's for harming." -*'*-,_,-Daniel Lim-,_,-*'*-</center>
Neji-San · Tue Oct 26, 2004 @ 12:44am · 0 Comments |
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.Today was okay, and earn many new information from church to become a better person and also become a better disciple.
Now off to homework crying
Quote: <center>"Simplicy cannot be earn by simpliciy but by complexity." -=||Daniel Lim||=- "Complexity is Evil." -=||Daniel Lim||=-</center>
Neji-San · Mon Oct 25, 2004 @ 04:57am · 0 Comments |
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Saturday, October 23, 2004 |
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Today had college at Chandler-Gilbert Community College, that's about it. stare
Quote: <center> sad "Only if life was a fantasy." sad '-~||Daniel Lim||~-'</center>
Neji-San · Sun Oct 24, 2004 @ 01:59am · 0 Comments |
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Today was a chaotic day due to the schedule screwup at school, besides that, I'm so angry and depressed that I can't get how to do some problems from my A.P. Physics class (Style C) and also why I'm doing oddly in A.P. U.S. Gov. & Const. *sigh* crying Life is unfair.
<center> neutral MY SUICIDE neutral
Please mommy, do not cry
For ages now I have wanted to die
Please little brother, do not weep
I was haunted with nightmares in my sleep
Please daddy, do not get mad
It was not your fault that I was so sad
Please big sister, do not scream
I tried to live but could no longer dream
Please teacher, do not feel blame
If you had tried the results would be the same
Please best friend, do not miss me
On this earth I just was not meant to be
Please boyfriend, do not go insane
There was nothing you in could do to ease my pain
Please grandpa, do not live in regret
Things happened to me that I couldn’t forget
Please grandma, do not shed tears
I have not felt happiness for many years
Please uncle, do not ask why
I am sorry that I never got to tell you goodbye
Please auntie, do not grieve
I made the decision myself, I wanted to leave
Please cousin, do not follow me to the grave
In the end to my depression I was a slave
I am sorry to all who I had to leave behind
I had so much pain that I couldn’t get out of my mind
I am sorry to whoever found me dead
I needed to slit my wrists in my own bed
I know that it is hard for you all to understand
How at nine teen my own death I planned
No one is to blame for the fact I have gone
But it was long ago that my spirit was withdrawn
Mommy you told me I would be an angel in the sky
Well now I have the chance so please you must not cry
I am finally happy in a place I feel that I belong
So please move on with your lives, you must be strong.</center>
Neji-San · Sat Oct 23, 2004 @ 12:30am · 2 Comments |
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Thursday, October 21, 2004 |
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Well today was boring at school, did mainly review and lots of homework. Like any other day, we have a pile of homework.
After school it was cloudy with a dark hue while it bears a slight heavy fog and rain. So today I went drifting doing donuts, frontal slides, and side slides. After this went to the chandler skate park to do some skating but was shocked that they locked it due to rain o(-_-)o. So just went skating in the rain around the skatepark. I then continued to 7 Eleven to get some food and headed home.
At home did nothing but homework like I always do.
<center> mad IF I WAS EVER TO LOVE YOU mad
I am Sorry
For my passion,
I am sorry.
For your misery,
I am sorry.
And for this short love affair,
I am sorry.
I am sorry…
For making you cry,
For breaking your heart,
And for deserting you.
I was wrong.
When I said I loved you,
I was wrong.
When I said I needed you,
I was wrong.
And when I said I couldn’t live without you,
I was wrong.
How did I?
How did I make you believe
What we had was special?
How did I make you dream
Spending every waking moment with me?
How did I make you tremble
Every time we kissed?
How did I give you life
Every time you gazed into my eyes?
How could it all have seemed so right
Only for it to be so wrong in the end?
I deceived you.
I made you feel free,
Only to lock you up again
Inside the same cold cage.
Left you there in solitude
With nothing but
A few faint memories.
It is all over.
Finally your confusion sets in.
Thinking about the good times,
You search for the answers.
Asking yourself the simple question
Of why our love was not to be.
Lost in the absence of reality,
You gaze around the empty cage
Not realizing the simple truth…
It is all over.
I have made up my mind,
And it is all over!
No more nights of passion,
No more days of bliss,
No more of us…
No it is not you,
It is because of my family's disgust.</center>
Neji-San · Fri Oct 22, 2004 @ 02:20am · 5 Comments |
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