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Standing in the rain, wearing jeans, a T shirt, and no shoes, freezing cold, but staring into his eyes made me forget the cold. He asks if im cold but i say no. He unzips his jacket, but instead of taking it off and putting it on me, he puuls one arm out and puuls me closer to him until im completely inside his jacket, and he zips it up, him still in it also, and wraps his arms around me. We go under a shade where we can`t get wet from the rain, us sitting on a bench, watching the rain. Being with him made everything better. I felt like nothing bad could happen while we were together

HE who makes a beast out of himself gets rid of the pain of being a man

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
I tried to drive all through the night,
the heat stroke ridden weather, the barren empty sights.
No oasis here to see, the sand is singing deathless words to me.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

As I adjust to my new sights the rarely tired lights will take me to new heights.
My hand is on the trigger I'm ready to ignite.
Tomorrow might not make it but everything's all right.
Mental fiction follows me; show me what it's like to be set free.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).

Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.

Caught here in a fiery blaze, won't lose my will to stay.
These eyes won't see the same, after I flip today.

Sometimes I don't know why we'd rather live than die,
we look up towards the sky for answers to our lives.
We may get some solutions but most just pass us by,
don't want your absolution cause I can't make it right.
I'll make a beast out of myself, gets rid of all the pain of being a man.

Can't you help me as I'm startin' to burn (all alone).
Too many doses and I'm starting to get an attraction.
My confidence is leaving me on my own (all alone).
No one can save me and you know I don't want the attention.

So sorry you're not here I've been sane too long my vision's so unclear.
Now take a trip with me but don't be surprised when things aren't what they seem.
I've known it from the start all these good ideas will tear your brain apart.
Scared but you can follow me I'm too weird to live but much too rare to die.

Yesterday, at my lil bros bday party, we played truth or dare.it was Carls turn 2 dare brandon williams, the guy i have a major crush on, and he dared him 2 either grab my butt or boobs, or his sisters butt or boobs, so he grabbed my butt and i completely froze. i felt like i was in heaven. i just wish he liked me though.