You know in life paranoia is probly one of the things that sucks most. Mostly down to where people may not necessarily be pessamists but just plain think things over too much, it kinda sucks! One recentish event would be where me and teh awesome Liz are drawing. She can draw amazingly! At least I think so Now despite knowing that she's a great friend and isn't the kinda person that would needlessly go and talk down on someone I suppose I just feel embarrased by my standard of drawing so at the given time I could quite happily keep the drawing to myself and not show anyone until I beleive that it is good enough to not be embarrassed about; however since she asked to see it I'd hardly go to say no and 'surprise' 'surprise' nothing bad happpened! She even said it was GOOD! As a result I am now drawing and trying to get better! Hooray! While still talking about paraoia it seems that going against the logic in your brain will somehow sometimes actually be fun and enjoyable! Now logic in itself it believe is something that everything would revolve around. You use logic for many things but when you start thinking of every possible consequence of every action you take, while you may be less likely to get hurt in any ways I suppose there you'd be mission out on potential fun because you didn't take a chance. It all rather confuses me, there are so many things that need logic but now i'm thinking should i just not care as much about things? With your friends i'd imagine it's okay to worry a bit about them seeing as you care for them but then when you well and truly WORRY at times it only eats away at you! Just as a note I don't constantly worry about my friends and it only happens if there was a reason(even a little one) for me to worry. Which has also brought me around to something else rather confusing. I've had the question in my mind of why I seem to stress over little things and then simply not pay enough attention at all to the big things; maybe my brain is just messed up like that? Oh well, I'll be happy because I can xD To be sad when you can be happy isn't logical at all! Unless a relative has died or something big and bad has happened i suppose.
Why am I even writing here? I never write to blogs, I just randomly felt like it. Right now I should probly be playing more World of Warcraft, drawing or playing xbox or something..........
Urges are kinda weird. What makes them happen? What makes you suddenly want to do something specific and there was no event to trigger it?
Oh well, nothing else on my mind at the moment I guess..........well almost nothing xD And you, if you're reading this why have you bothered to read the pointless thoughts of some random guy? *pokes* I want a marshmallow for every word you have just read here razz
 CamjoCotem · Wed Jul 30, 2008 @ 10:01pm · 0 Comments |
