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My little update.

I am not completely thrilled with where my life is. I think it all stems back to the relationship between my deceased cat Seven and myself.

Last December I had to put her down because she was very very ill. We had a bond like none other. I could be in the crappiest mood and she would pull mt right out of the funk I was in. From the moment I got her 12 years ago, we were bonded at the hip.

Life is weird now. I feel like i am a bother to everyone. I feel like nothing I do is right. I feel like I have no one to vent to. I feel incredibly out of place. Alone.

I want to be happy again. I really do. I guess I just want to be loved the same way Seven loved me. Unfortunately. . . No one really does.

Im so sad. I want someone to talk to. That I can be friends with and they will understand me for who I am.

Let just see what happens.

I don't know how long I can manage being this way.



Tomorrow is a new day right?


P,S - Seven Josephine DD. I miss you so incredibly much. I want you back so bad. I love you more then you can ever imagine. heart crying

I am ready to just give up completely. At work, it seems like i can't do anything at all right. First thing my manager says is " can I talk to you for a second" coldly. Next is " I need to have a meeting with you to discuss something that may result in disciplinary action".

-___- Great. . . And Happy Easter to you.

Dammed if i Speak. Dammed if I am quite.


I feel so segregated. Life sucks at home. Life sucks at work. I want out.

Life is piling into a giant mound that I don't think I can bare anymore. Just for a moment a pause button would be nice. We will see. Indeed we will.

This month has been soo sad cry . First off my mom told me she didn't want to be my mom anymore ( and kicked me out of the house). Then about a few days later, I had to put my cat down. She was really ill. I have her for 11 year. There is so much more to this situation. I am just giving a brief overview.

It just sucks because everything feel soo close to Christmas cry question (. I hope next year is better rolleyes .

Btw. Love my Bf. He is the only reason I made it through this rough patch. heart

Have a Happy and Safe Holiday Season Everyone. biggrin

So, Tomorrow I am getting my braces off. What a glorious feeling this will be. I am so happy.

This was a 5 year smile in the making biggrin .Removing 8 teeth, spacing my top jaw wider, jaw surgery on the top and bottom and braces for 5 years.


Let me just say this, Totally worth every moment surprised

Today I took a day to relax. I plopped myself of the couch and ate Oreo cookies while watching T.V. mmmm So good 4laugh whee

Recently things have been really crappy. eek question x cry I am glad to see things are getting better. I still have a few obstacles to get over still but once they are settled, things will be great. mrgreen

It seems that I have bit off a bit more then I can chew. Meh. Things could be A LOT worse. I guess you can say, take this as a learning experience. sweatdrop

Overall I feel great so I am going to run with it. biggrin

Anime North is coming soon to Toronto. rofl rofl rofl rofl

Im sooooo excited. Im going as Dark Magician Girl from Yu gi Oh.


OH man its going to be amazing smile biggrin

Happy Birthday To you.

> Happy Birthday To You.

> > Happy Birthday Dear Mom.

> > > Happy Birthday To You.

Happy Birthday mom. Love you lots heart heart heart heart 4laugh

IT'S THE WEEKEND! . I am ready for this. Very tired. Looking forward to a nice sleep in smile smile smile blaugh Busy day tomorrow. Off to playdeum tomorrow. Its gonna be awesome

Im really happy today. Walking dead comes on tonight. I have tomorrow off and. . . Life is awesome smile biggrin smile biggrin biggrin biggrin biggrin smile smile smile blaugh blaugh 3nodding xd stare heart