Who the hell was I 12 years ago? Like seriously...
It boggles the mind how much getting older can change a person and their viewpoints. I used to be so conceited, resentful, and stupidly edgy. I despise the person I presented myself as here. I know it was a different time, but I'm 100% okay with never going back to that time.
I can't decide whether to leave these up as an archive of who I once was, or to just wipe this all away, submitting my past to the ether of 1's and 0's that fade once the disk space gets overwritten. Strangely enough... I think I'm ultimately who I wanted to be 12 years ago, but I don't think I ever realized that I'd hate who I was. That version of myself didn't know what he wanted, and was probably angsty with the world for not helping him realize it. Hell, I still don't fully know what I want yet, but at least I'm not that guy...
Gaia, I spent so much time on you, and now I just don't care. I haven't cared for years. I've moved on with life and, frankly, I'm a lot better for it. I've developed a career, I'm finishing a masters degree, and I'm cultivating valuable relationships with people irl. I'm nervous about where I'm going in life, but I'm still drastically happier than I was when I was active on this profile, and I'm grateful to see that I've changed so much since then.
I doubt anyone will ever read this, but if you do, and especially if you're a teenager thinking that the world doesn't understand you... give it some time... you gotta understand the world a bit more first. Good luck.
Oh, and it's hilarious to think that Photobucket was still a thing when I was using this profile.
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