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Trapped
this is terrible. my parents bug me all the time. they really annoy me. sometimes i just wanna disappear. i get no privacy at home. trust me. ever since i was young they had the lock 2 my room removed. and im also not allowed 2 close my room door. it annoys the hell outta me. i mean mi parent r onli home at night and then they leave early in the morning. the rest of the day im always alone at home, so i like 2 visit the park and go shopping all day so i wont b lonely. but during the times when my parents r home they drive me nuts. they r home less than 12 hours a day. i onli see them at night 4 a few hours and then they go 2 bed. but durin the few hours they r home, i just wanna suicide. i get in fights with mi dad everytime he steps into mi room. the thing is that my parents feel bad 4 not spending time with me ever since i was little so mi parents try 2 make it up 2 me buy talking 2 me when they have time, and also buying me gifts and givin me money. i luv the gifts and all, but i just hate talking or being with them. i try 2 talk 2 them as less as possible. i really dont need mi parents' love. i am very independent. i dont enjoy their company. i just wanna b alone, but they dont understand me at all. i just wish they wounld leave me alone. i never actually told mi parents how i feel, because every1 in my family have terrible tempers and whenever we disagree we end up yelling and all. plus mi parents r very strict, even when i say or do something they do not like they end up yellin at me and they threaten 2 take away, mi laptop, tv, etc... , that's y my parents never really understand each other. they will never understand i just wanna b left alone. their love and kindness annoys, and angers me. im a very difficult person. i dont need mi parents' love at all, i just need mi friends, school, and other things. my parents will never b important ppl in mi life, because they will never ever understand how i truly feel, i always have 2 put up with a fake smile, because my parent will start yellin and lecturing me if i have a frown, its very difficult. i just wanna find an escape.
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