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I miss your smile... What is there to smile about?. So much... Its all in the perception friend, and I am your friend, not like that depressing piece of strofoam you've been listening to so much... You're going to tell me to enjoy the way things are going? To enjoy the loss of friends; of comfort? I'm sorry, but I fail to see the fun in being lonely all the time, and, you know, you're just a piece of styrofoam, too... Yes, but I'm your friend... Hmm... You've lost focus on yourself, lost too much strength to things you felt affection for. Paid too much attention to people you know would disappoint. You know what they are!! Don't expect anything but nasty irritation from anyone you didn't create... Maybe. Well, yes, this mood has grown pententiously heavy. Maybe I should just try to enjoy things... Yes!! Do exactly that! You're alive for now! Why waste your existence mimicking the dead?! So enjoy!! ... Yes. But you know, I'll only go back to my previous mood. Eventually, it always happens like that. Well, Hurry then!! Play while you can still appreciate it!!
OKAY! I think I'll go out! That should be interesting.
Yes. In fact.....
I'm smiling already.
 xPuLax · Sat May 05, 2007 @ 12:12am · 0 Comments |
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I stared motionless, before the mirror, as always, I stared until I'm convinced that there is no glass, nothing, separating me from the room I see on the other side. I imagine that everything is different. Over there. Better. There are people. In that world, Who would like. But like always. My hand hits that glass. I know that if I'd only waited just one more second... s**t. I'm gonna go kill a party clown.
xPuLax · Mon Apr 23, 2007 @ 08:30am · 0 Comments |
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Today I stuffed some dolls full of dead rats I put in the blender.... I'm wondering if, maybe, there really is something wrong with me.
xPuLax · Fri Apr 13, 2007 @ 03:48am · 2 Comments |
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