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Why are things nice and easy. today I dunno ran let me see how ugly i can be I mean did I ask her those things? what was I thinking. I never thought ran would mind i guess either but it should have not been asked if i really like her u know.wow 3 seconds saying how bad it was to work at a certain job and then that mood is popped with this bigger dilema. she told me to compare her position with my sis. I dunno shes younger so more innapropriate but to a point it didn't matter. shes got to be mad at me. talk about a whole new low. Im so worried I want her to forgive me but if it were me thinking about it then it would be a no. GOD DAM why does s**t like this got to happen why cant i be some other guy any other guy who doesn't care about this or that is super lucky with women to care less. man i must have been a evil man or hitler to deserve this karma. going through so much hell. i wonder still would it be true that ill never meet a girl like ran. actually i just want to meet ran but I dunno about it now. I couldn't enjoy the music at all when she left for bed =_=