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About 10 minutes ago, I just filled out an Equal Employment Opportunity Questionnaire, for work, that was given to every employee along with our paycheck. The questionnaire only asked for my full name, age, my position at work, how I found the job, and my race. So I write in everything that needed to be filled in, now I get to the last portion and it asks me to check off the box that matches my ethnicity. There's about 6 or 7 choices of races. The first choice on the list was Hispanic or Latino, so I checked it off because I am of the Puerto Rican ethnicity. So I jumped right down to the end to the signature line and signed it without even thinking. Before I got out of my chair to go hand it in, I took another look at the list of races (This isn't the full list, these are just based off memory):
1) Hispanic or Latino
2) White or Caucasian (not Hispanic or Latino)
3) African American (not Hispanic or Latino)
4) Asian American (not Hispanic or Latino)
5) Native American (not Hispanic or Latino)
6) Island Pacific American (not Hispanic or Latino)
7) Two or More Ethnicities (not Hispanic or Latino)

stare Does anybody else notice anything "strange" about this? This was how it was written and given to the company's Human Resource Personnel. Why does the Federal government feel this it is important to continuously add "(not Hispanic or Latino)" after each option? Why did they have to BOLD it on the sheet? Does the Federal government feel that it'll avoid any confusion for the Hispanic race, as if we would to confuse our race with another race? stressed Yes, I wake up every ******** morning, look in the damn mirror, and question whether I'm Spanish, or Asian, or Indonesian, or German, or Italian, or African, or Jamaican, or Caucasian, or whatever! Or is to emphasize that there are too many Hispanics in this country, and so the Federal government feels that they have to keep track of us? stressed Am I going to wake up one morning with a tag stapled to my ear that has an identification number written on it? Or is this some kind of tax exemption that the company is trying to gain by showing the government that they do employ various races, but mainly Hispanics. As far as I know, the government does offer tax exemptions for companies with a certain percentage of minority employees. stressed Great! Now I feel like the slut that the company pimps out! That questionnaire does not show me "Equal Employment Opportunity"! It tells me that I'm being singled out and targeted by our government! I questioned it, and no body could give me a suitable answer. The last thing I feel right now is equal. This might mean nothing for a lot of those who read this, but it means a lot to me.

I don't really understand why, but I'm in such a crappy mood right now. I am legitimately not happy right now. And I don't know why, I mean I woke up good this morning, had a pretty decent day at work, and nothing bad happen when I got home. I played with my niece, chatted with my friend for a bit on the phone, and helped out my uncle with his iPhone. But I feel completely miserable right now and I hate it. Its bothering me so bad right now. I'm hoping that by ranting about it here I can get it out of my system, and enjoy the rest of my evening. I'm actually starting to get a bit frustrated now stare I need to hit somebody, and BAD! Just mess up someone's face a bit, or break a leg or an arm, or SOMETHING! Anything to get rid of this awkward frustration. Something is bothering me and I can't figure out what it is... wtf!

To whoever reads this, note: I don't want you to believe that this entry is a cry for attention or help. I'm mad and I just didn't want to bottle it up inside, so I threw it up here to let it out. I also hoped that by reading this myself, I could get a better understanding of what's going on in my head. Which it help, but it wasn't a complete success.