ok I deleted my last Jornal entry because what happend is over and I wont hold any grudges yes I was hurt but I'm past it. I forgive that person for what happend and I hope they dont hold anything against me. we won't be friends but I would hate to be all out enemys. I mean we have had problums but I no longer see a good reson to be mad. Holding on to bad things that are in the past isn't good for you any way. and finaly I'm sorry for what I wrote. as much as I ment it at the time. I don't feel that way any more.