I was poetic.
I was symmetric.
I was an effective killing machine.
My luster was lost along with the last shreds of sanity I had left in me.
I became dull and hostile.
I remain that way.
I became uninterested and depressed.
I remain that way.
It is who I am now.
Now I am nothing.
Nothing but the shell of a soul who's been to hell and back.
I was left by all who could have helped and thrown into a harsh environment.
An environment of which felt like the sun beating down on me in the Sahara.
Drying out my insides and making me helpless and vulnerable.
Willing to trust the wrong person.
Willing to do anything to get my wounds healed and my revenge under way.
I wish that I could have stopped everything.
To be anything other than some persons rag doll.
To be pushed and shoved around.
But that's how I treated other people.
The Golden Rule came back to bite me in the a** like Karma.
I had always treated people like toys.
When they got boring, I threw them away.
I got better ones.
I would then break the new ones.
And I would throw them away.
And then I ran out of people willing to be my so called friends.
But I didn't really want new ones at that point.
It was all useless.
It was all pointless.
Nothing was enough anymore.
And now I sit here.
Giving not excuses.
Gaining no sympathy.
I don't want it anyway, you can keep it.
Do I have your attention?
Do I have you ******** attention now?
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